Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 22

*25 hours later (Dan's Pov)*

We finally left hospital! Taylor was born, he was so cute. I've always loved babies.I decided I'd drive her home because Marcus' hand was numb from Emma holding it so tight. "You did it" I said as she put Taylor into a protective car seat. "Yep" she said with a sigh of relief, I could tell she was still in pain. "You okay?" I asked nervously. "Yeah" she said with a fake smile. I could tell she was upset about something. I gave her a look that said: I know somethings up please tell me. "Fine, so I looked in the mirror after I had Taylor and I had loads of stretch marks that lined my stomach. I already had enough, and I was planning a few things for all of us in summer" she admitted. "Like what?" I asked. "California.." she said quietly. I nodded and jut decided to start driving.

*Home Emma's Pov*

Finally I was home after a total of 50 hours. It was about 8 when I got home and I was exhausted. the worst thing was the first thing that popped in my head after I had Tay. Finally I can cut again. I quickly got that thought out of my head. It was like I had bipolar depression. One second I was happy, the next I'm sad and crying. Taylor fell asleep in his car seat. I smiled at his cute expression and carried him to mine and Marcus' room which now had a cute blue crib with warm blankets. I set an alarm for every 2 hours so I could make sure he was okay and feed him. I didn't leave his side it was then 9PM and all of them came up to see me rocking him in my arms because he was crying. I had a microwave and mini fridge in my room so I could make him bottles whenever I needed without going all the way to the kitchen. he had just finished a bottle. "You're such a good mum already!" Alison squealed quietly. "Thanks" I said as he finally fell asleep again. I laid him gently in his crib and went over to Marcus. "I love him" I said wrapping my arms around him. "I do too" he said as he kissed the top of my head. "We'll leave you guys to it" Dan said with a wink and silently closed the door. Marcus and I changed into our night clothes and laid down to sleep.

*After that whole night with 4 wake ups to check on and feed Taylor*

Marcus and I woke up about 10 and checked on Taylor. He was wide eyed and smiling. "Are you happy love?" Marcus laughed while carefully picking him up. I smiled at his expression. "Marcus I'm gonna make him some milk, can you handle him for a bit?" I asked. He nodded happily and continued to hold Taylor. I made his milk and warmed it up. I sat down next to Marcus. "Do you want to feed him?" I asked. He nodded frantically. I laughed and gave him the bottle. "You should rest" he said warmly. "I'm alright" I responded with a half smile. I decided to go to the washroom, take a shower, shave, and do my hair and makeup. The thought of me being next to a razor scared me but I tried not to think of my head. I put on some music and got in the shower. I rinsed my hair and washed my body. then I shaved my legs and got out. I saw that I cut my leg in 3 places, great now Marcus is gonna freak out. I quickly bandaged my legs the way I used to do my wrist. I then dried my hair, put on my outfit and did my makeup. I decided to wear jeans to cover up my legs.

I walked into my room to see Dan,Phil, and Marcus talking and playing around with Taylor, they were tickling his stomach and cradling him. "You guys having fun?" I asked laughing. "Yep" they all said as they passed Taylor to Phil.

(Later that night)

"What do you want for dinner?"Dan asked as I laid my head on his lap, finally Taylor was asleep. I laid over Phil, Dan and Marcus because it was just us and we can all fit on my couch. My legs crossed over Marcus' lap. He could feel the bandages through the leggings. "Emma,please tell me you didn't" he sighed. "No, just cut myself shaving" I reassured him. He let out a sigh of relief and nodded. "Do you guys want to make home made pizza?" I offered. Phil jumped with excitement. I looked up and saw all of them nodding. I got up and led them to the kitchen. "Okay, Marcus can you get the flour, yeast, and a cup of water?" I asked. "I-I Captain!" he said with a salute. I laughed at his nerdyness. "Dan, can you get marinara sauce, pepperoni, and sausage or any other meat?" I asked while looking for a pizza sheet. "Yep!" he called from the fridge digging for the ingredients. "Okay, Philly, can you get the cheese?" I asked slightly laughing knowing that Phil hates it. "Ugh. Only for you!" he said crouching down next to Dan and looking for cheese. I got the pizza sheet and a large bowl to make the dough. Everyone brought their ingredients. The toppings and sauce we're on the counter with the pizza sheet. I put a bit of flour on the surface of the counter top and mixed the yeast, flour, and water together and made a ball of dough. "Emma...Where did you learn how to do this?" Dan asked while fiddling Phil's hair. "I used to help my dad. You know, before they were insane"I said. "Who wants to make the dough into a circle?" I asked acting as if I was a Primary school teacher. "Me.Me!" Marcus called while raising his hand like a student, continuing the school acting. I laughed and stood back so he could do it. I watched as he molded the dough into a perfect circle.

While he was doing that I went upstairs to check on Taylor. He was still asleep and peaceful. I walked back down and saw that the dough was on the pizza sheet. "Damn Marcus that was fast" I laughed. "Phil want to do the marinara sauce and cheese? Dan, toppings?" I suggested. "How about the other way around" Phil suggested with a fake gag. I laughed and nodded. "Watch this mother truckers" he joked while grabbing a spoon and the sauce. "So, you act as if you're rubbing lotion on the body of a fabulous llama" he laughed. "You're. A. Spork" I said in between laughs. "That's my favorite utensil" he said with a childish voice. Phil was trying to contain his laughter. when Dan finished with the cheese Phil carefully and neatly placed the toppings. "Guys.." Dan said as I put the pizza in the oven. "Yes?" Phil said sitting down next to him. "Why do we exist?" he said. I sat down next to him. "Existential crisis.." I whispered to Phil. He nodded. I held his hand to keep him from freaking out and falling on the floor. I saw him eyeing the knife. "No.." I whispered to him so Phil couldn't hear. He nodded. "No.." I repeated again. He looked me straight in the eye and half smiled. "I love you" he mouthed. That slightly surprised me. "You too" I mouthed back. Dan got up and motioned for me to follow him. "I'll be right back" I said getting up and following Dan.

"Don't tell Phil" he said taking off his jacket.

(A/N: CLIFFHANGER!! Yes I know I'm evil ;) I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and I may update again today :) I'm not at school (hell) today so I have loads of time to write.

xx- Lexi)