Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 33

(Emma's Pov)

I woke up to Abby licking my nose. "Abby, you're up early love" I laughed opening my eyes and sitting up. I looked over at Dan, he was so cute when he was asleep. I smiled and looked over at Abby. "Why don't you wake your daddy up. Yeah?" I whispered. It was like he understood every word. She carefully walked over to Dan and jumped on his chest. She barked and wagged her tail frantically. "Abby, you're a bit excited for 7 AM" Dan yawned sitting up as well. "Good morning" Dan cooed. "Good morning Dan" I yawned. "Can I tell you something?" Dan asked. "Of course" I warmly said. "Okay so, yo u know my dad you met?" he quietly said. "Yep" I replied. "He's my step-dad. My real dad is.. he's in jail. He was abusive. (DISCLAIMER: I'm sure Dan's Dad is amazing in real life. Keep in mind this is only fiction) He would hit my brother and I and call us awful things. He was the main reason I started cutting and not eating. He would go a bit easier on Ade. I luckily got Ade out of there. He stayed at my Aunt's house. My actual dad was always drunk and always had something to do to us. He only hit my brother a few times, maybe 3. I was different. I was called 'Ugly' 'Fat' 'Stupid' 'Unloved' 'Unwanted' 'A disgrace' 'Emo'. And everyday he would tell me to kill myself. My mum was always working so she never saw his true colors. One day our neighbors saw him push me against a wall and slap me until my face bled. He called the cops and got him arrested but no one told my mum. I told her he went to America to be with another woman, it would have been easier than the truth" he admitted. "Aw baby!" I exclaimed hugging him tightly. "I'm so sorry" I said. "It's not your fault my love" he cooed.

*1 hour later*

Dan and I have already eaten so I was off to the washroom to shower. I undressed and got into the shower. The warm water ran down my back. It was so relaxing. I then had to shave. I accidentally cut my leg. I watched as the red blood dripped down my leg. It was triggering. Flashbacks ran through my mind. I couldn't bear it. Instead of cutting I went to my other old friend. Bulimia. I emptied all the contents in my stomach, it was disgusting and selfish of me but it was better than purposely cutting myself. I flushed the toilet and turned off the shower. I kept the shower on to block out the noises. I used some mouthwash then brushed my teeth. I actually felt better since I did that. But I knew it was wrong. I knew if Dan figured out, he'd be so disappointed. Since we're dating, he deserves to know. I quickly got dressed and walked downstairs. I said good morning to Alison and Phil. I motioned for Dan to come with me. I took him to the lounge. "Okay, so I cut myself on accident shaving and it triggered me. I knew I couldn't cut so I purged.." I admitted. "Please don't you're beautiful" he said stroking my back. "Thanks Dan" I smiled. "Anytime. Please don't do that again. Or else i'm going to have to keep a close eye on you young lady" he joked sounding like a dad. I laughed. "I mean, I don't want to have to shower with you to make sure you don't do anything *cough* yet *cough*" he joked. "Dan!" I exclaimed punching his shoulder playfully. "Just kidding" he said shaking his head. "Daniel James Howell you are such a flirt" I laughed. "That's me" he smiled. He bent down and kissed me. "I love youu" he said like a child. I laughed. "I love you tooo" I replied.

*Alison and Phil are out. Dan, Emma, and Abby are home by themselves* (Dan's Pov)

I really want to take Em out for a walk with Abby. Just so we can talk. "Em?" I called from the lounge. She was in the kitchen feeding Abby. "Yep" she answered walking into the lounge. "Want to go on a walk with Abby?" I suggested. "Sure! Sounds great. I'll go do my makeup" she replied happily. "No makeup walk" I smiled. "Only because I love you" she said coming over and kissing me. "Abby" Emma called grabbing her leash from the coffee table. Abby came running in ecstatically. I put on her leash and we walked out. "So Emma" I started. "Yes Daniel" she replied cheerfully. "Why do feel like you need to wear makeup? You're beautiful the way you are and I want you to see that" I asked. "I dunno actually. Just a confidence thing I guess. Thanks Dan. You're perfect the way you are and you shouldn't change for anyone" she smiled. "Thanks Em" I smiled back. By now Abby was walking us. She has loads of energy for a eight month old dog. I pretended to be out of breath. "You okay there?" Emma asked laughing. "Yep" I chuckled. "I love your laugh" she said smiling. "Thanks Em" I replied. I love her so much. "Em I'm so sor-" I started. "Dan, it's okay. I love you" she cut me off. "I love you more" I laughed. "That's physically impossible" she said sounding as posh as ever. "You're so posh" I quietly said, she hated that word, as do I. "Dannnnnn" she sighed. I laughed. She playfully poked my chest. "Boop" I say poking her nose. "Okay Sam on season five episode eleven on supernatural" she said. She was so nerdy. "Nerd" I laughed. "I just re watched that episode, that's the only reason I know it by heart" she told me. "Still, you're a nerd" I said. She playfully punched my chest. I laughed and we decided to turn around and go home.