Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 24

TRIGGERING CHAPTER

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(A/n: So this chapter may be triggering. So you know Emma's probably going to put Taylor up for adoption but that won't be in the book (sorry). This 100% will be a very sad chapter. It will also mostly be about Dan and Emma.)

"Please don't" I said as tears escaped my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. "I won't" he said blinking back tears and trying to stay strong. "I love you" I said as I wrapped my arms around him. He hugged me back. "I love you too Em" he said stroking my hair to clam me down. "Can I see your wrists?" he asked. My heart fell seeing Dan's wrist triggered me. He saw me get pale and gently grabbed my wrists and rolled up my sleeves. "Please don't" he said pulling me into a warm hug. Did I have feelings for Dan? NO! He's dating Phil and I have to love Marcus. But, Marcus isn't as understanding as Dan. Instead of helping me through everything, he asks why and I can tell he gets annoyed. Dan and Phil fight a lot. I just don't know what to do. I thought. "Em?" Dan said noticing I went completely silent. "Y-Yeah Dan?" I said. "You alright?" he asked. "Yeah.." I whispered. "Are you sure? You seem worried" he asked again. "Do you want me to be honest?" I sighed. "Of course" he said warmly. "Okay so I don't think Marcus really cares anymore" I admitted. "It'll be okay. I promise" he said. "Dan?" I said slightly shaking. "Yes?" he said. "I'm sorry" I said trying to keep myself under control. "For cutting. I tried not to" I said as a few tears escaped fro my eyes. "Don't cry, it's not your fault" he said wiping my eyes.

(Get ready Demma Shippers) He leaned down and kissed me. I never thought I'd say this but, I didn't mind at all. Until the thought of Phil popped in my head. "What about Phil?" I asked as we pulled away. "He broke up with me last night. He thought we needed a break. He kept blaming himself for my cuts" he said. "I'm so sorry" I said hugging him. Then Marcus walked in. "What's going on?" he immediately got mad. "Having a conversation" I said back in the same tone. "Let me guess you're cheating on me" he said folding his arms. I did the same and said "You know what Marcus? You never give me time to explain. You jump to conclusions, then when I finally get a chance to open my mouth you say you love me and that you won't do it again. But here we are." "Emma-" he started. Quoting him I said "Save it, I think we should take a break. Be with other people." "Okay, still friends?" he asked. I nodded. He had to go home today anyway. "So, does this mean?..." he said. "I guess so" I half smiled. And even though it wasn't a full smile, it was real. He hugged me and took me to the bathroom to clean my new cuts, just as I did for him. "Just breathe" he said as he cleaned the cuts that lined my wrist. "Thanks Dan" I said as he finished bandaging my wrist. "Your turn" I said with a wink. " I taught you well" he laughed. I smiled and cleaned and bandaged his cuts. "Almost done" I said with a smile. As soon as I was about to finish the last bandage Phil walked in sleepily. "Philly!" I exclaimed. "Woah there, hey Em and Danny boy" he said. I smiled at the fact that they were still friends.

(That night. (Dan and Emma's date) Emma's POV. Alison and Phil are out at the mall)

"What should I wear?!" I called from my room. Dan was dressed in a tux. "Wow, you look great" I said as my jaw dropped. "Thanks" he said walking over to me. "Help" I pretended to whine. He just laughed. "I barley have any dresses" I said. "Wait! My sister does in her room" I said pulling Dan to my sister's room and going through her dresses since we're the same size. I picked a black and white dress with black heels. "Is this good?" In asked as I walked into the living room. My makeup and hair was already done. "You look great" he said with a smile. "Thanks Dan" I said back. My hair was curled and my makeup was light. "Ready princess?" he asked. "Yes my prince" I laughed. We drove to the restaurant. 'Your Guardian Angel' by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus came on. "I love this song!" Dan and I said at the exact same time. "Our song" he said with a smirk. "Yep" I laughed. We got to the restaurant about 7:45. We got out of the car and walked to the door. It was a revolving door, obviously a fancy restaurant. "After you m'lady" he said gesturing for me to go first. "Thank you sir" I laughed.

*A few seconds of Dan figuring out how to use the door*

"Table for two?" the waitress asked. "Yes ma'm" I said with a kind smile. "This way" she said gesturing to us to follow her. We sat down in the giant dining area. She gave us menus and took our drink order. Dan and I both got water. "Dan, this place is amazing" I said taking a look around. "My cousin took me here once" he said with a smile. "That's nice" I said. His family was always really sweet. Dan and I love pasta so of course that's what we ordered. "Emma" he said. "Yes Dan" I said back looking into his beautiful, sparkling brown eyes. "I'm sorry, for everything. I should've just told Caspar no and died, so you never would have hurt yourself" he said quietly. "Dan, for the one hundredth time, it's okay and it's not your fault" I said warmly. "I will always love you, just know that" I said. "And I will always love you too" he smiled. Then the meal came and we ate. "So, what made you actually like me?" Dan asked. "Well I liked you on the first day. I loved you smile, laugh, dimples, eyes, shy personality. Just so you know, I could tell in the back of my mind you didn't want to do all of that stuff" I replied. The rest of that evening was amazing.

*The end of the night*

Dan and I got to my house. Phil and Alison were already there. "Hey guys" Dan said as he opened the door. "Hey" Phil and Alison yelled from the lounge. "I'm gonna go shower!" I yelled while running up the stairs. I grabbed fuzzy pants and a tank top, then went to the washroom to shower. I turned my volume on my phone all the way up and started playing Red Jumpsuit Apparatus in the hopes that Your Guardian Angel would play. Gladly, it did. I softly sang the words. Apparently, I was louder that I thought. I got out of the shower dried off and put on my pajamas. As soon as I opened the door Dan popped up and scared me. "Boo" he said. Of course I jumped. "Daniieeelllll" I said with a hand over my chest to steady my breathing. "You're a really good singer. You should sing more" he said with a wink. "Nope I suck" I said blushing. "No you don't" he said tapping my cheeks making me blush even harder. "Don't blush silly" he laughed. I laughed as well.

For the rest of that night we just watched movies and listened to music. "Uh..Sleeping arrangement?" he asked awkwardly. "Whatever you want I don't care" I said. "Would you be okay if I was with you?" he asked. I nodded. He nodded back and we went to my room. He was already in his pajamas, black and red fuzzy pants. I was already halfway asleep when I got into bed. As I was falling asleep I heard Dan singing Your Guardian Angel. I smiled and tried to keep my self from blushing even though it was dark. "Love you" he said then kissed my cheek and went to sleep.

(A/N: Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed the chapter. I've been really upset lately so sorry for the sad chapter

x-L)