Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 30

*Pickup*

"I want to go home" I said as a single tear fell. "I want you to be home to" he said. My head rested on his shoulder as he stroked my hair. "Maybe I'll be home in a week" I said. "Yep. And when that day comes I'll stay with you and won't leave your side no matter what" he said with a smile. "I love you Danny" I said. "I love you more". Then he leaned in to kiss me. I kissed him back. He put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. As we pulled away for a moment we rested our foreheads together. "I love you so much" I whispered. He kissed me again keeping his hands on my waist. He moved his hands to my sides. I put my hands around his neck and ran my fingers through his hair. We got even closer to each other, which I didn't know what was possible. By now, Dan's hands were on my shoulders as we were still kissing. "You're amazing" Dan whispered. "You are to" I said back. We slightly pulled away. I bit my lip in thought. I loved him, he was the one I really loved. Everything from the beginning of the year came back to me. I pushed that thought out of my head. I kissed him to break my thoughts. His hands were inside my shirt on my waist.

We heard a knock at the door, breaking our kiss. Dan and I at this point were blushing like crazy. I opened the door and saw Gabriel. Dan laid his head down on the pillow and just laughed about what just happened. "H-Hi" I whispered laughing slightly. "I'm guessing I walked in at a bad time" Gabriel laughed. "N-No it's fine" I said holding in laughter. "I'll leave you two. I'll talk to you later. Have fun" he laughed. He winked and walked out. Dan and I burst out laughing. "Shall we?" I said with a wink. He nodded and bit his lip. I sat down and he put his hands back on my hips. Our lips connected, causing chills throughout my whole body. He pulled me closer to him so now I was basically sitting on him. He passionately kissed me and I kissed back. I loved him so much. I was wearing a tank top under my jumper so I took off the jumper. We were both abstinent so we just kissed. He took off his shirt revealing his chest. A few minutes later we just laid down next to each other. I ran my fingers up and down his bare chest. He stroked my wrists gently. "I love you" I said while I turned to look up at him. I stared into his beautiful chocolate brown eyes as he stared back into my emerald green ones. "I love you more" he said, his heavy British accent was so attractive. I looked at my wrists, luckily I got my stitches out in two days.

Dan noticed me looking down at my wrist. He carefully picked my wrist up and kissed it. "I promise, you'll be okay" he cooed. I smiled and leaned up to kiss him. Our lips collided, still giving me chills. I somehow got tired and Dan noticed me slowly falling asleep. He chuckled and laid next to me. Finally, I could fall asleep with the one I love. I laid my head on his chest and fell asleep.

(Dan's Pov)

I have no idea if Emma still gets chills when we kiss, because I definitely do. I seriously loved her more than anyone I know. I miss her being around me all the time. I miss being able to stroke her hair to get her to sleep. I just miss her.

(Emma's POV)

After a few minutes of silence, it was time for Dan to leave. "Bye baby" he cooed bringing me into a hug. "Bye Danny" I sniffled.I have no idea why I got so upset but I did. He kissed me and walked out. I closed the door and sat down on my bed, with my face in my hands. I didn't know why I was so sad. I was practically, silently sobbing. I heard a knock on the door, I sighed but answered it. "Hey" I said as I looked up at Gabriel. My voice sounded broken, because I was broken. "What's wrong? Wrists, now" he asked. I pulled up my sleeves, revealing my clean wrists. "I don't know why I'm sad again" I choked through tears. "Bipolar depression?" he asked. I took a second but eventually nodded. "Do you want me to stay with you for a bit?" he asked. "If it's not a bother" I whispered. I laid my head down on the pillow and Gabriel at next to me. He stroked my hair to calm me down. "It'll be okay. I promise" he whispered back. "I missed you" he said. "I missed you too. How was life out of this hell hole?" I asked. "Sucky as always. I got into a fight and I'm kinda done with people. As you know, I'm in for a suicide attempt..Again. But hey, it's not to bad here. At least we have each other" he said. i thought about each word he said. I was silent due to my thinking. "You okay there love?" he asked. "Yeah, just thinking" I said snapping back into reality. "Oh, okay. So how was yours?" he asked. "Sucky. Dan was and I repeat WAS bullying me for a bit. And some other stuff.." I said avoiding telling him about Caspar. "What else? You can tell me" he cooed. I sighed but decided to tell him. "So Caspar was making Dan bully me. So Dan and I called the police and got him arrested but he escaped. I went out at about 1:00 AM for a walk because I was super stressed. Caspar knocked my out and kidnapped me. I woke up but then he drugged me so I slept for a good three days. In those three days, he .. raped me. I had the baby but I put him up for adoption. And you guessed it he took my virginity" I said. "I'm gonna kill him" he said puffing his chest to look stronger. I laughed and looked up at him. He laughed back. "Cute laugh" I said hoping he'd remember that from a few years ago. "Cute face" he said with a wink. "You remembered!" I said smiling. "Yes, yes I did." We laughed but I still didn't feel much better.

I pushed every depressing thought out of my head. I just attempted to fall asleep. Gabriel eventually had to leave. It was horrible. I closed my eyes and went to sleep.

*The next morning*

I woke up at about 10 to someone knocking. I sighed, but answered.My jaw dropped. It was not who I expected.

(a/n: hey guys. sorry i haven't updated in a while. i've been very busy with studying for exams. i hope you're all doing good. love you guys <3)

-L