Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 26

(A/n: TRIGGER WARNING once again. Like I said I've been upset and I'm really sorry for all the sad chapters. I hope you are still enjoying the books even though though it's sad. Love all of you guys. Each and every one <3. Once again thank you for 3K and I'm so happy I have all of you)

*At A&E Emma's Pov*

I was trying not to cry in front of everyone. I had to be strong for Dan. I already knew they would hospitalize me, and I was truly terrified. "Dan?" I whispered because for some reason I could barley talk. "Yes princess?" he replied with a warm half smile. "If they put me in hospital will you stay there with me if you can?" I asked. "Of course. Don't tell anyone this but I've been in a mental hospital because of a suicide attempt when I was 13" he admitted. "Same here. That's why I didn't want to be here" I confessed back. "I'm sorry" he said. He was about to say something else but the nurse called my name. My eyes widened, I looked up at Dan. He nodded and took my hand and we walked back. She informed us a doctor would be in soon. We nodded. I pulled the cloth up from my wrist and more blood came out. "Damn it" I said pressing the cloth back onto my wrist. A few minutes passed and the doctor came in. "Hello Emma, I'm doctor Singer and I'll be with you today" the doctor said with a kind look on her face. "Hi.." I whispered shyly. "So what's the problem today?" she asked. "Um" I said and looked at Dan. "She cut herself and it was very deep" Dan said for me. "Where is this cut?" she asked. I pulled the cloth up, luckily it wasn't bleeding. "I see. Are you okay love? If you need to talk we can put you in hospital for about a week and see how you do" she suggested. "I'm not o-okay" I stuttered, my breathing became very heavy and I winced, I was terrified of hospitals. She nodded noticing I went pale. She asked for my wrist and I put the cloth down next to me. She began to clean it. I never experienced so much pain. I bit my lip to keep myself from freaking out.

A few minutes later she was done. I was so relived. "This is deep, you may need stitches. I think we may be able to do them here" she said. I began shaking but I nodded. I was terrified of stitches ever since I got them on my leg from falling over a rock. Then she left to discuss it with the other doctors. "Dan. I c-can't I'm so scared" I said while quickly blinking back tears. About 45 minutes later she walked in and had everything for stitches. My heart began pounding. She asked if I was ready and I nodded. She numbed the area and put the string through the needle. Dan put out his hand and I held it tightly. She began the stitches. It hurt like hell. I was surprised Dan's hand wasn't broken. "You're doing great, only a few more" the assistant said while rubbing my shoulder. Dan got a call from Phil and answered it using his other hand. "Hello?" he said. I saw the contact. 'Phil'. My heart fell. "Where are you? I came over to Emma's" Phil asked, I could hear him. "Uh..We're at Asda" he lied. He's not a very good lair I guess. "Okay.." Phil replied sounding unsure. They said their goodbyes and hung up. They finally finished after 40 minutes of extreme hell. "You did great" Dan said smiling. "Thanks" I said back gently rubbing my wrist. It was still in loads of pain. By now all of the nurses were out discussing something. "I don't want to have to go again" I blurted out. "Me either love" he replied. They then walked in. "Emma, we think a mental institution in London would be perfect for you!" she exclaimed acting as if it was a good thing. I just nodded instead of arguing. "We'll take you if you'd like" she suggested. "Can he take me" I asked motioning to Dan. She nodded an gave us the address.

We got into the car and I put my head in my hands. "Why do I have to?" I asked trying to keep the fear out of my voice. "They think it may help you" Dan replied. I nodded and we took the directions and went to the hospital. When we got there I immediately started shaking. Doctor.Singer was there waiting. Dan and I walked up to her and she introduced us to a guy named Luke, he would be watching after me. "Emma this is Luke he'll be here to help you" she introduced sounding like a professor. "Hi" he said putting a hand out. "Hi" I whispered shaking.

He showed me my room and Dan ended up having to go to my house and get my clothes. I just sat on the bed waiting for something bad to happen, I knew it probably would. I heard a knock at the door. I got up and answered the door. "Hello?" I said looking up at the guy that stood in front of me. "Hi, I just wanted to welcome you" he said sweetly. My heart began racing for some reason, like I've heard that exact sentence. "Thanks" I said with a smile. "So what's your name?" he asked. "Emma. Emma Jacobson" I said. "Oh my god! Emma what are you doing here?" he asked. "I'm sorry do I know you?" I asked. "I'm Gabriel, Gabriel Mathis" he said. My heart skipped a beat. Flashbacks played through my mind.

(Flashback)

"Emma!" my friend Gabriel (In the picture above) said running up to me and hugging me. "Hey Gabriel" I said wrapping my arms around his waist. He was two years older than me and I loved him more than anyone, he was there for me no matter what. "Wrists. Now" he commanded. I sighed and pulled up my sleeves revealing 2 fresh cuts. "Emma, you're beautiful please don't cut. I love you so much" he said kissing my forehead. "I love you to" I said putting my face to his chest and closing my eyes. He was the only person in that hell that I loved and trusted. They all thought I was insane there except him. We were both in there for suicide attempts, he understood me.

"Emma, love, please know I love you" he said. Today was the day he left. We were best friends since the day we met 4 months ago. "I love you too. I'm gonna miss you" I cried. "I'll miss you to my love" he warmly said. I stood on my tip toes and kissed him goodbye, he was my first kiss. I was happy to say it was him. I watched as he opened the passengers side door and got in. He mouthed 'I love you so much' right as his mum pulled away. That was the last thing he said.

(Flashback Over)

"I missed you so much" I cried into his chest. He was still giant compared to me. "I missed you too. Now tell me why the hell are you here? Wrists. Now" he commanded like old times. I pulled up my sleeves revealing my stitches. "That deep?" he asked sounding upset. I nodded. "It's okay. Remember you're beautiful" he cooed.

(A/n; Feels. Okay so I hope you enjoyed this sad chapter. Love you guys)

-L