Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 8

"Emma I have cancer" he said tears escaping his eyes. My heart sank I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't believe it. Marcus had cancer. "w-what? will you be okay? is it bad? will you live?" I asked my eyes turning red. "I'll hopefully be fine and it's not to bad. I love you baby" he says hugging me tightly. That was the first time he called me that. "I love you so much" I say hugging him tightly back. He told me to go home and get some rest. I walked home tears still streaming down my cheeks. I walked in my house and quickly ran upstairs. I basically sobbed for an hour. Then I broke my promise. I cut. I didn't want to. It was like a power was controlling me. I counted the cuts. 1.2.3.4.5.6.7. I was so mad at myself. I just did what I always did when I was mad or sad.

To Philly: "Philly can you talk? I really need someone right now"

To Emma Bear: "Of course. What's wrong love?"

To Philly:"Marcus has cancer"

To Emma Bear: "Oh my god. I'm so sorry sweetie. Are you okay"

To Philly: "No. I cut again"

To Emma Bear:" Oh.. I'll be right over. How many cuts?"

To Philly: "7"

To Emma Bear: "Damn I'll be there soon"

To Philly:"Okay"

I waited for Phil. "Hey Em" Phil said walking in with chocolate,ice cream, tissues, and bandages."Hey Philly" I said sniffling. "Can I see?" He asks motioning toward my wrists. "Yeah" I say rolling up my sleeves revealing my cuts. He put the bandages on and put on our favorite movie. That whole day Phil and I just talked and watched movies. Marcus called about 10 o'clock.

"Hey baby"

"Hey Marcus. How are you?"

"I called the doctor and I will live! I'm getting a surgery and a few other treatments"

"Yay! That's amazing!"

"Yep! I was super excited. I just found out about an hour ago"

"I love you. I'm really happy you don't have to deal with a dying guy"

"Love you more. And I would deal with it. I wouldn't let you die"

"I wouldn't let you die either. Luckily the cancer was just developed so we can get rid of it"

"Good. I have to tell you something. Please don't be mad"

"Okay and I wouldn't be mad. I'm not mad easily"

"I cut. I was just scared I didn't know what to do"

"Okay babe. I'm not mad trust me. If you need anything I'm here for you"

"Thanks Marcus. That's another reason I love you"

"I love you for to many reasons to count"

"back at you"

"I'll see you at lunch tomorrow"

"kk Marky"

"goodnight babe"

"night love"

I smiled knowing that Marcus was going to be okay (A:N/ You guys happy now?) "Marcus?" Phil asked. "yep he's gonna be okay!" I said happily. "That's great! Do you want me to stay over tonight?" "Sure, I'm gonna go to sleep though I'm super tired" "Okay night Em" "Night Philly"