Bullied By Dan Howell

Part 25

(May be triggering)

(A/n: Okay so I'm sorry I've been writing sad chapters. Like I said last chapter I've been really upset lately. I've been in a permanent existential crisis. I'm sorry if I trigger any of you guys. I really shouldn't be writing these chapters but I guess I do anyway. These next few chapters will revolve around Dan and Emma)

"Why are you here?" Phil laughed. "What do you mean?" I said blinking back tears. "You know. You're stupid, ugly, fat, unloved, hated, why are you here? You should be dead" he growled. "Phil stop" I cried. "Why? You scared?" he laughed again. I knew this wasn't Phil. What was wrong with him? "Dan!" I screeched as he opened the door. He just glared at me and walked over to Phil. "You know when I said I loved you all those times I was lying. And in the beginning of the year, you think it was Caspar that made me do all that? You're such an idiot" he coldly said.

"Emma" Dan said shaking me. I woke up and wrapped my arms around him. "Nightmare?" he calmly asked. I nodded. "It's okay, it was fake" he cooed. "You'll never be alone" he said as he rubbed my back. "I love you" I sniffled as I pulled away from his chest. "I love you too" he said. "Can you please sing again?" I asked. "Of course. Which song?" he asked. "Never Be Alone by Shawn Mendes" I asked. (This is in 2016 but they just started their YouTube career) He nodded.

I promise that one day I'll be around
I'll keep you safe
I'll keep you sound

Right now it's pretty crazy
And I don't know how to stop or slow it down

Hey
I know there are some things we need to talk about

And I can't stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now

Take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You'll never be alone [2x]

You'll never be alone
When you miss me close your eyes
I may be far but never gone

When you fall asleep tonight just remember that we lay under the same stars

And hey
I know there are some things we need to talk about

And I can't stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now

And take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You'll never be alone [6x]

And take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
Never be alone.
You'll never be alone

I nuzzled my head into his chest. He stroked my hair and softly sang my favorite songs.

(Dan's Pov)

Please get better. I thought to myself. I needed her to get better, without her I don't know where I'd be. I love her so much and all I want is for her to be happy. I just want her to be okay and happy again. I miss her smile, her laugh.

(Emma's Pov)

Dan could see the expression on my face and immediately hugged me tight. The thought of all the blades in the box rushed through my mind. "Dan" I said. "Yes" he replied. "I want to you know" I said avoiding the word 'cut'. "Please don't. You're beautiful, and I love you so much, I need you" he cooed. Tears slipped from his eyes. I cupped his face with my hands and wiped away his tears. "I love you more" I said leaning up and kissing him. "I need you too" I said as we pulled away. He pulled me closer to him than ever and hugged me. I felt safe, protected, and loved. "Pancakes" I suggested looking up at him. He smiled and nodded. "Let's a go" he said doing a Mario impression. I laughed and actually smiled. He gasped in excitement. "I missed that beautiful smile" he said pulling me into a kiss. I laughed and took him downstairs. "Delia?" I asked. "Of course Delia's a ledge" he said sounding as British as ever. "Spork" I coughed. "Cute" he coughed back. I smiled and attempted to reach for the ingredients. "You need help there love?" he asked. I nodded and pretend frowned. "I'm so tiny" I whined. "You're not that small" he said kindly. "Thanks tall one" I joked. He laughed and we made the pancakes. "If we go to America can we go to IHOP?" Dan asked engulfing his pancakes. "Of course" I laughed. "I'm.In.Heaven" he said. I quickly finished.

I went to the washroom and showered as well as made two cuts. One was accidentally deep. "Crap" I muttered. Dan must have heard. "You dressed?" he asked. "uh n-no" i lied. "You're not a good liar, can I please come in?" he asked. "You'll kill me" I whimpered. He opened the door and sat down in front of me. "i'm sorry" I cried. "Shhh" he said stroking my cheek. He grabbed a cloth and applied pressure. It didn't stop the bleeding. "We may have to go to A&E.." he said quietly. "No, I'll be put into hospital. I can't let people know" I choked through tears. "Baby.." he said. That was the first time he called me that. "We have to" he sighed. "Dan, I don't think I can take it anymore" I said. "I'll carry you just come with me" he warmly instructed. I nodded. I got up and walked to his car. He wrapped my arms before we left.

He signed me in and we waited to be called. "I'm scared" I admitted. "Don't be. You'll be okay I promise" he said.

(Dan's Pov)

I looked into her usually bright green eyes that are now grey and red from tears. It came to realization about how much I truly love and care about her. I needed her. She always put herself down, she shouldn't. She's beautiful, smart, talented, and outgoing. She's the definition of perfect and I love her so much. She's the only person I truly think really cares about me and my happiness. She was the one I loved.

(A/n: I hope you guys liked this chapter. Thanks so much for 3K you guys are amazing and I can't thank you enough)

-L