The Unstoppable

Decisions

After we hung out for a while, I decided to announce their death to the community.  Us three walked to the nearest church and rung the bell three times. That means a meeting in the town hall. I saw people heading this way. I was holding Beth's hand behind me. Once we were surrounded by a group of people, I began to speak. I was nervous because I saw my mom and dad. I cleared my throat . " I've called a meeting today ( pause) Because there has been two deaths in our community today." Everyone's eyes got wide. " The names are Benjamin Green, and Jordan. Her last name is unknown because she was found outside of the walls." People were crying about Benjamin. " They are buried in the cemetery across the street." After that people started talking among each other. I decided to walk away. Beth and Jackson followed and caught up to me. " Paige, where are you going?" Beth was out of breath because she was getting a belly from her baby. " Planning." I was determined. Jackson and Beth looked at each other. " What?" I kept walking and went to my house, and went to my parents closet and found all the nearest town maps. And I started making routes and escape routes. I highlighted where I wanted to go, and how I was going to get there. After a while I closed up the maps and stuck them in my back pocket. "Where are you going?" Beth sounded curious. " Beyond the wall." I said it to her right in the eyes. " I'm done with all of this drama. And I need to know what is out there. What are they trying to keep away from us?" Beth grabbed her stomach. " Oh my god. Whats going on." Blood was dripping down her legs. Then she fell to the ground. " Jackson and I caught her just in time. Jackson held her and I ran to the hospital as fast as I could. " Someone help her!" Jackson was freaking out. I arrived at the hospital. " Someone please! My friend! Something is wrong! She is maybe a month and some pregnant! Please help her." Some paramedics ran out with a stretcher and carefully put her on it, and rushed her through the doors. 

"Beth!!!" Some of the nurses were holding me back from going back there with her. " Miss Starr, please stop you most wait here." I gave up and slid across the wall and sat on the floor and started crying, Dear Lord, why Beth? Hasn't she gone through enough?" I sat with my legs against my chest and hands wrapped around my legs. It must have been hours later that the doctor finally came out. "Paige." I lifted my head noticing that its the doctor, I stood up. " It seems that Beth had a miscarriage. She passed the remains." I couldn't believe what I just heard. " We are having a proper funeral for the baby." Doctor Pia seemed like she has had many of these cases. Jackson was crying. " The most important part, is Beth okay?" I was more worried about her. " Well, she is very young to be experiencing this, she is okay. But it will be very hard for her for a long time." Thank goodness she is ok. " Thanks doctor Pia." I walked over to Jackson. He instantly hugged me. At first I was shocked, then I hugged him back. " My baby." He whispered. 

We had to wait a long time to see Beth, she didn't want to see us until she was ready. The doctor told us that she slept a lot. The doctor was still trying to think of a cause as to why she had her miscarriage. 

I had lots of thoughts where Beth and I were there for each other. Either she was holding me while I cried, or I was holding her in my arms while she cried over things. 

She is going to need me for a long time. Finally the doctor told us we could go in. 

I walked in and looked at her, sat down on her bed and held her while she cried. She was holding her stomach from the pain. We were all hugging each other, Jackson's arms were around mine, and mine around his. Beth just sat there crying for a long time. We never spoke, but she knew that we were here for her. After a while I left, and let her and Jackson have their alone time. 

I arrived home and told my mom everything that had happened in the past month and recently. She held me while I was crying in her arms. My mom was always been  there for me most of the time. She wasn't mad, and she didn't say anything. 

I went to my room and sat in my window looking beyond the wall. I was so curious what it was like beyond the wall. I pulled out my notebook and started to sketch some things I've seen, or what I've experienced. 

I decided to take a bath like the old days, I got buckets and filled them up with water and put them in the tub. We had some old bubble bath. I put my hair in a messy bun and got in. I read one of my old books for a long time just relaxing. I then washed my body and hair. When I got out I smelled like a human again. " Paige, there is someone at the door for you, his name is Jackson." She was yelling through the door. " Okay tell him give me ten minuets." My hair was wavy and I put on spandex and a cute top that showed off my figures, put on deodorant and perfume. Put on what makeup I had left, and walked downstairs. I walked to the door and opened it. " Come in." I grabbed his arm. He walked over the the couch and sat down. He sat there for a few minuets. " Are you okay?" I was looking at him. " No. I'm not, but all that matters is that she is alive." He looked at me. He almost looked surprised or something. " What's wrong?" His eyes were wide. " Sorry, you are just very pretty. And you smell good." His face turned red and he looked away. I laughed. " Thanks." I put my hand on his leg, " If you need anything i'm here for you." He seemed to tense up at first. " Thanks." He looked at me for a second. We stared at each other for quite some time. He got closer to my face and kissed my lips. Maybe three or four times, putting his hand on my head. I got closer to him. He stopped, and pulled away. " I can't do this. I'm sorry I have to go." He got up and left. I could still feel him, my body was tingling with various emotions. I was cold with shivers. 

" I'm stupid."