The Unstoppable

Thoughts

I'm in love with him, and I know that for sure. But does he love me back? I may never know. He is crushed over Beth. I wish she would have never left. Its not safe out there, especially after everything I've been through. Its scary.

 Jackson is still sitting outside from when she left three hours ago. Just sitting in the silence. 

I walked outside to talk to him, I walked up to him and sat down. I thought about why I liked him so much, maybe it was the way he cares so much? Or his hugs that drowns out everything around you for that one moment, and suddenly everything feels okay. The way he cares about me just gives me butterflies, and I've never been this way before. Maybe because no one has ever taught me to love, not even myself. 

I've grown up with my parents always around, but there was so many expectations and there was a certain way they wanted me to be so I never learned to love myself. If I ever had a boyfriend it would only last a few months and they would all tell me they weren't ready and they just wanted to be friends. I hope that Jackson is different, and I believed he was. 

After a long while of silence I decided to hug him. I wrapped my arms around him for a long time. He laced his arms around my chest and I just sat there for a long time. I didn't know if he was thinking or what was going on in his mind. 

" Did I do something wrong?" He finally said something. " No, it was my mistake." It was true. It was my mistake, I fell in love with him and he was dating my best friend. I made moves that I shouldn't have. " How did you make the mistake? I just lost the love of my life." My heart is crushed. " Because I fell in love with someone who I knew I could never love, but in my mind I thought he was already loving me." He looked at me. " I'm in love with you Jackson, and I know that for sure." My stomach fell all the way down to my butt. " Maybe, I made a mistake. Maybe I was in love with the wrong girl." We just looked at each other. 

Eventually I got up and got water from the creek, enough to take a bath to clean myself up. I filled the tub up, with water and bubbles, enough to cover my whole body. I decided to grab one of my favorite love stories that I used to read all the time before the outbreak. Its about a girl who falls in love with a guy, but he loves someone else. She never gave up on him, and was always there for him. In the long run they got together, and the girl finally felt a purpose and felt needed and wanted. Her whole world came crashing down after he hurt her heart, by lying about the whole thing. In the end she finds a deeper love for Jesus. Like I said one of my favorite stories. So, I was reading the part where he asks her out, and then I hear a knock on the door. Knock, knock, knock. " Who is it?" I scrambled to make sure all of my body was covered by the bubbles. " Its Jackson, can I come in for a minute?" I pulled my hair into a bun and made sure everything was covered. " Yeah, sure." He opened the door and sat next to the tub, which surprised me. " I need to talk to you." I laughed. " Can it wait? I'm not wearing clothes haha." His face was all serious. " Paige, I think i'm in love with you." My face dropped. " What?" I set the book down. " Paige Starr, I think I'm in love with you." I leaned my body against the tub and my head right next to his. " You, are in.....Love with me?" I was so shocked. " Yeah, I've been thinking about it for some time now. And now I know it's true." 

I couldn't keep myself from kissing him.