The Unstoppable

Armed and Dangerous

I got up from the couch and walked to the kitchen. I looked for a sharp knife and headed up to my room. I debated cutting myself for a long time. All my scars were healed up from last time. I looked out of my window holding the knife in my hand. I finally decided to cut my leg. I used the knife and cut my legs in multiple different places. While I was doing so, someone walked in. It was Jackson. " PAIGE WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" He ran over and tried to get the knife. " Stay away from me Jackson." He missed the knife and was fighting me for it. " STAY AWAY." I yelled at him. The knife cut some hair off of his arm, and he got the knife out of my hands. " What are you thinking Paige? Beth needs you right now! Why would you do that?" I sat there not saying anything. He sat down. Blood was all over on my legs. I felt warmness everywhere from the blood. Good thing I shaved the night before. " I came to apologize Paige. It was my fault for everything that happened." 

He walked into my bathroom and grabbed things to clean me up, it hurt so bad. I didn't show any emotion to him whatsoever. " You can talk you know." He had blood on his hands from my legs. " I have nothing to say honestly." I didn't even look at him. " Look, Beth is your best friend. And this never meant to happen at all. We are friends. And we need to be here for each other. And I don't want to let this mess everything up okay?" He was putting bandaids on my legs. There was so many of them after he  was all done. " Why would you think like that?" He put the knife and other things in the trash. " Because whats the point of living? We have no future ahead of us. I'm sure that life outside these walls are horrific. And I don't want to live anymore." He looked at me in shock. " But I thought you were leaving?" I was in so much pain. " Not by myself. I don't know what to expect, and It will be worse if I go alone." His face lit up for some reason.  " What if we all go?" What a great idea. " Really? You would want to go?" I was happy. " Why not? And look i'm sorry." At this point I didn't even care. " Can we hug it out?" We both nodded. We stood up and gave each other a friendly hug. 

We both never told Beth what happened while she was at the hospital. We moved her back in. She mostly slept and ate for a few days. Never leaving our room. Jackson and I planned where we wanted to go. We were both excited to tell Beth. But we had to wait until she was ready. And not depressed. I need to help her get back into shape.