Green Day Academy (Slowly Editing)

Chapter 27

The break up with Jye left me empty and longing. I no longer talked to Stephanie and judging by the bare side by Ryan, neither did he. To say I needed a friend was an understatement, although i was counting down the days until the Christmas holidays and I was quite an expert at faking a smile. 

I was walking to English with Ryan when i saw it.

"You have got to be kidding me," I said, stopping dead in my tracks.

"What is it?" Ryan asked.

"See Stephanie laughing flirtatiously to what looks like herself?" 

"She's actually laughing flirtatiously with Jye?" He asked.

"Exactly. I have lost all respect for him, i honestly thought he was better than that." I spat.

"Don't worry about him Ree, he clearly isn't worth it. Hurry up, we're going to be late for class!" He grabbed my arm and all but dragged me along, although my eyes were on Jye and Stephanie and the lust in his eyes. Stephanie was only using him to keep herself alive, and i hated that i didn't want to do anything about it.

Throughout English, i was thinking about everything that Jye and I had been through. The thought of our entire relationship being false occurred to me and it took everything in me not to cry at it. I exhaled and told myself that what we had was real, but things always came to an end.

Ryan looked at me, concern etching his eyes as he averted his attention back to the board. I've known Jye practically since i was born, although i've never seen this side of him. 

 I sighed and continued working on my essay, even though i wasn't in the mood.

After class, Ryan asked me if i wanted to spend the rest of the night around town. He was a great friend and i knew he was only doing it to get my mind off things.

I went to my dorm to get ready. Looking at myself in the mirror, my eyes looked heavy, my smile sad and my posture-- slouched. I tried to stand up straighter and put a genuine smile on my face but after a while, i gave up and put my make-up on, trying my best to conceal the bags and make my eyes look a little happier. 

I greeted Ryan in front of the library with a sad smile. He walked over and embraced me, squeezing me tightly.

"It does get better baby girl," he said. 

Despite everything, i laughed at the nickname he called me.

"And i will do everything i can to make it better," he said with a smile as he let go.

"Thanks for everything, Ryan." 

"No worries, now c'mon! I've got a surprise for you," he said taking my hand and dragging me away. 

JYE

I watched from afar as Ree laughed with Ryan. He took her hand and she smiled, she looked happy.

If i hated Ryan before, i hated him even more now. 

I realised that if i had never gotten involved with Stephanie in the first place, this wouldn't have happened. I try not to hang around her anymore because I know what she's capable of doing.

But i have no one.

Gray is dead, the idiots aren't on my side anymore and Ree... Well i stuffed things up with her.

The truth was-- i was lonely and i turned to Stephanie for that reason only. She wasn't even good company but she was like my drug and she made me forget.