Unconditionally in love AND Eternally sad

Let me forget you

since you've been gone
a long time has passed
a long time without u
long days dying
and long nights crying
crying my heart out
crying every last drop
leaving me tearless
eyes dry, while I drown inside

a long time has passed
and I still see you
everyday, everywhere.
I see you in my dreams
I smell you in the air
I feel your loving touch
in the soft caress of the wind

I cannot stop thinking
yet every thought of you ends in tears
the wounds you left, so deep
still bleeding, still hurting
I'm choking on my own sobs
and in the end only scars remain

meeting you was a blessing
loving you a mistake
for you're carved in my heart
your mark permanent
and you were bound to leave at last
forever, never coming back
your mark a wound, bleeding in my heart

you walked into my life
and I simply let you in
though I knew you'd hurt me
though I knew I'd hurt me, by loving you
cause you're too perfect
and I'm nothing but a fool
you're too perfect
and I could not do anything but fall

I still have my mask on
my mask of indifference
the one I put on
the day you left, the day I died
my heart still bleeds
for you, your smile
and my hands ache to touch your face

perhaps you loved me once
perhaps for a short while
perhaps you still think of me
perhaps I was more than a pretty face
perhaps you can love me in another life
but all I know is I was not good enough
for you to stay, to try
never good enough

I don't know when you stopped
but when you gave up, my heart knew
and you seem to know perfectly how
I said I'd never forget
all what you took, all what we shared
it comes back to haunt me everyday,
and it always ends in tears

I wish to stop, I wish to give up
I wish to forget...
teach me now
teach me how not to love, not to fall
teach me to stop loving you, to close my heart
teach me to stop caring, thinking, about you
to stop hurting, bleeding, dying
to stop crying over you
hopelessly like a fool