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Please Wake Up.

Chapter 39

I flipped to the next page, curiosity overpowering the emotions that were flooding my brain. And unfortunately tears were flooding my eyes. The pages were plain, not white, like a beige but lined to fit her perfect handwriting.

So the first time I saw you, well you and Ace. You both were watching me like I was a fucking alien. Like you'd never seen a motorcycle before. But when I took off the helmet and you both realized I wasn't a man, thanks for that shit by the way. I like to think I have feminine qualities, anyways once you realized I was a girl, your jaw dropped. I instantly hated you, because I was immediately attracted to you. –Love Riley.

"Son of a bitch." I whispered and flipped to the next page.

These first few memories are pretty small since they seem like forever ago. Take it easy on me. So I walk into school the next day and Josh tosses his arm over me. I knocked it off, I don't know why but I did. Now I realize it was because I didn't want you to think I was taken. Insert winking face. Though I tried to hide the fact that I was disappointed when you were. Blondie didn't like me from the glances I was getting, but the feeling was mutual. Then when you were leading me to class, I had to fight every urge in my body to be nice to you, I had to be a bitch because I didn't want you getting hurt. So don't take anything personally. Even then I was saving your ass.

I remember saying you couldn't figure me out if you tried. Which, I admit I was wrong. I'm wrapped around your damn finger Sparky. –Love Riley.

I collect all the pages in my right hand and flip through them quickly to play my own version of roulette. Which memory was I going to land on?

The first time you saw me fight. You little shit, you snuck in. I'm not super mad anymore, though I would have been okay with you never witnessing me fight. At the time though I was furious, terrified you'd have the same fate as Farkle if you got too close to me. Scared that I'd lose someone else I cared about no matter how hard I tried to fight it. I distinctly remember asking myself why you liked me. I was well, am such a bitch. I don't remember much until we got back and I throw an ice pack at you, so that'll show you.

I can't help but laugh, even during the whole scenario I wanted to laugh when she did that.

You got all demanding saying you can like whoever you want, and you took a play out of my book. Wrapping your arms around my waist. I remember you saying you didn't care if being with me was safe. I remember you saying that I'm good for you despite my protest. And you have no fucking idea how much my heart soared. To be wanted by someone like you, well that feeling was unbelievable.

This was the night I found out you were a virgin, and I was incredibly relieved. Relieved because my fists tighten even thinking about another woman touching you. I told you about Farkle and I told you about my parents and despite the fact their deaths were directly caused by me, you said and I quote;

'You are good. You're amazing.'

Damn a lot happened that night. We became official, I was sick of pushing you away. Sick of denying myself to have you because I'm not good. You wanted me to train you so you could defend me, which cut to my core. That was a smooth move Friar, using fighting to earn my affections. A lot happened that night but most of all I remember,

'You are not alone Riley. I am here for you more than you can imagine.'

Lucas, I am here for you more than you can imagine. –Love Riley.