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All You Do is Love Me.

Chapter 43

But what does feel normal is me being pressed up against these lockers and kissing Sparky. This is the one thing I'm sure of, that kissing him is right. "I love you Riley."

I snake my arms around his neck and continue to enjoy his embrace. Lucas pulls away slightly and presses his forehead against mine. "I love you." He whispers again.

My lips open and his thumb runs across my bottom lip. I don't know what to say, I don't even know if I'm the same girl he fell in love with. He apparently changed me a lot and I know I'm the same person I was when I moved here from Houston. "I'm sorry." He whispers and inhales deeply, "I shouldn't be putting that on you."

"It's not that I don't like hearing it, but I'm not going to use your heart as a toy. From my journal I obviously loved you and I want to feel that way towards you. I do like you and I do love having you around but I can't say I love you yet, I don't know-"

"Riley it's okay." I hurt him again. It's in his eyes, his hand caresses my cheek and he smiles, but it doesn't reach his those incredible orbs. "I told you I'd make you fall in love with me again and I will. Starting tonight, our first date to Del Fresco's you and me."

I lick my lips and smirk, "Try to be open minded to me, because I'm not the same-"

"Yes you are."

"I'm hurting you." I whisper and break eye contact.

His pointer finger raises my chin, "Look at me sweetheart." I keep looking at the tile, "Look at me Riley." It is equal parts hideous and disgusting. "I said look at me." The rough and demanding tone caught my attention as well as turned me on. Lucas is equal parts gorgeous and sexy. How can a specimen like this man exist? "We're both hurting. You don't want me to see it, but I know you are." Well he's good. "I'd rather hurt to get you to be with me then not try at all. So, I'm not going anywhere. I will continue to fight for you even if you tell me to 'fuck off'." He laughs and tilts his head to the side. "Do you understand?"

A simple nod because he pretty much rendered me speechless with his authoritative demeanor. "Answer me."

"Shit." I laugh and a genuine smile approaches my lips. "You're really hot when you're demanding."

"Do you understand Riley? I need you, and no matter what you do or say I'm not going anywhere. You are worth every single storm I will ever go through. I mean shit, I've been kidnapped for you. I mean it isn't like I fought it too damn much but that's because I knew you'd keep me safe."

I wrap my arms around his neck and feel him squeeze me tighter in our hug. "I wish I could remember you Sparky. I fucking hate that I'm doing this to you. I hate not knowing what we had, because you speak as if we had a once in a lifetime romance that belongs on that Lifetime channel shit." His laugh warms my heart and I nuzzle my face into his neck, "I'm trying I swear." I can feel my emotions rising to the surface and he can hear it.

"Take a breather sweetheart. I know you don't like showing your emotions to anyone but me and Josh." That's also something I've been thinking a lot about. I mean, I woke up and instantly trusted this guy. I open up to him about everything and I don't know how that happened. Am I fucking broken?

I feel that way.

I feel like a clock that's stopped ticking. Constantly in a stand still because I can't remember what happened. I'm stuck. Unfortunately replacing my batteries isn't in the cards. "Sparky I do like being with you. I'm not trying to waste your time."