Poems (The Patterns of my Mind)

Cross-generational Crush

She said she was just now jumping on the bandwagon like everyone else now that he was gone

She didn't respond because she knew the real answer

She was born and raised on the bandwagon 

Had always been on it

Just silently on it

Reaching out to the wind of other music while still remembering

She told her not to play the music if she didn't want to listen to it

"You don't have to play it just for me... I'll be fine" she said

She kept on playing

She had always loved the music

How could she not? 

And it was icing on the cake that her mother was a believer, NOT just a fan

She was tired of being silent

She wanted the world to know 

To know that she loved the music of past and future - at the present

She took her to see the movie

The one said to be almost autobiographical 

She reveled in the memories

All those great times

And wallowed in the regret

Of not taking her to ever seen him

She wanted her to experience him in her life 

Because when she did, it was life changing

She was on the edge of her seat

She watched, felt, and understood the entire time

She saw connections to her own life

In one that seemed so different from hers on the surface

And at that place and time

In the dark movie theater 

She fell in love

Just like she did, only a few decades later, in a different experience 

She saw what she saw in him

Or what she thought she saw in him

She was happy she loved the movie

She was glad she loved the music

But she was worried about her getting stuck

Stuck in the past, not living her current life

She didn't want her to loose touch

It was already hard enough for her

Such a kind soul

A slowly breaking soul

No friends around her

The movie moved her

She was more determined to let the world know of her new love

One that ran so deep in a matter a days

And it didn't matter that he was dead

She had a crush - if that's what you want to call it - on the same person she had one on decades ago