Poems (The Patterns of my Mind)

Revelations

I saw you many years ago

I saw you 2 years ago

I saw you a month ago

I saw you once

I will never see you again

Still in grade school

You changed my world

I walked into a new school

The new girl

So tall she stood out against the crowd

And you smiled your smile

One I would never forget

I soon found out

You were the joker

The bad kid

The rebellion

Everything I was not

I never sat next to you

I barely talked to you

Despite that I was drawn to you

Perhaps that's why

I could never look you in the eye

You were new to me

And made me feel like nothing before

Now I spent those same days around another

You were smart and kind just like me

You played your heart out and had the best laugh

I sat next to you all the time

I took your pens

Just like mine

And made you search for them

Brining your annoyed self closer to me

While teaching me that a smart nerd could have fun

You were safer than the other

But a challenge to myself

We battled each other for the top of the class

But we were almost friends

And you made me deal with my fluttering guts on a daily 

You played hard in PE

My basic boy counterpart almost equal in ability

But you beat me every time with your hot sweat and your smile

I struggled through the year

And learned that I didn't know how to cope

So I fled from the two that revealed too much 

A year I was gone

With another two trying to take your place 

But they couldn't reveal anything to me about myself

I returned back to my original case

Only to find that one was gone

But the other was better than every

I still took your pens 

But stayed quiet

You smiled your way through the world

Using you smarts when you needed to

I know you almost hated me