Normani POV
" MANI" i hear my mom scream.. " 5 more minutessss mommy! ... wait mom?" i open my eyes to see my mom standing outside Dinahs bunk " MOMMY!" i jumo off the bunk waking Dinah up aswell and i hug my mom " I missed you so much!" she laughs and Dinah Yawns saying sleepily " Hi Ms. Kordei " .. " Hi Dinah" my mommy says with a smile " Your home baby!" my mom says kissing my forhead.. " Im so happy!" i look to Dinah and i can tell that she is very nervous and i giggle... " Mommy i have to tell you something" Dinahs eyes go wide and i sit on the bunk and my mom asks " What is it honey" i take a deep breath " Dinah and i are.. going out" my mom smiles and nods her head " i could kinda tell by the way yall were sleeping " i laughed a little and looked to D then back at my mom " So your ok with it?" my mom sighs and plays with my hair " i guess ill have to be..." i hug her and kiss her cheek " Thank you mommy! " she laughs and kisses my cheek " alright well ill see you girls ar the show" she says and i get back in the bed while she walks away " wow that was easier than i thought " i said giggling and Dinah smiles kissing my nose " same " she closes the curtain and starts to kiss me over and over again so i pull her on top of me and we have a full make out session in her bunk... im so perfectly happy with my life right now.
Lauren POV
I woke up to someone squealing and stuff and i yawn " Camzzz" ..Camila opens her eyes and sits up yawning " yeah babe?" i smile cause she looks so cute when she wakes up but then i remeber the text i read.... " Babe ummm ill be back" i feel myself getting sick just thinking about it so i run out if the bus letting the freash air hit me as i take a deep breath in calming myself down.... " damn anxiety" i mumble to myself and i sit on the pavement next to our Parked bus. I hug my knees putting my head down just thinking about everything and i have that bad desire again.... i really need to get this straightened out. " Lolo?" camila came out just in time " are you..." i cut camila off " Camila why dosent cody want me to go to the show?" i say and she has wide eyes like if she did something wrong.. " Umm what are you talking about baby?" she says sitting next to me " please just tell me straight up... pleaseee " she sighs and kisses my temple " Lolo... cody has been flirting with me and sometimes i give in... and well idk ... its so meaningless to me but he thinks something is going ot happen if i go and thats why i dont want to go. " she says and i feel tears start to come to my eyes but i take another deep breath " Okay... you can go now" i say trying my best to be strong " But lau..." she starts to say " GO" ... im starting to loose my cool and she runs to the bus. I wipe my eyes and stand up kicking some rocks down the road... I mean she didnt cheat... i would probably do the same thing... but fuck im so pissed off and everything now! ... i go down to the gas station thats across the street and pick up some Chips with Nutella... when i go to pay i open where i keep my change and i see a razor.... shit. " Hello? $3.50 please " the guy says waking me up from my trance and i hand him the money. I walk out going back to the bus and straight to my bunk but i find camila sitting there on my laptop " Out please..." she looks up and pouts " but lolo!" i sigh about to break down and cry right there and i bite my lip stopping me " Camila just take my laptop and go to your bunk... i need a while to myself " she nods and leaves with my laptop and i get in my bunk opening the nitella and chips. I sit there eating it and i take out the razor placing it on my lap... ' im just a fat cunt anyways' i think to myself ' at least you have camila... stop being a selfish bitch lauren!' that voice scream in my head ... i lift up my shirt and press the razor to my skin right above my belly button and i draw a line.. then another... and another untill i see a bunch of diffrent red lines on my tummy.... after a few seconds all the lines start to bleed so i take my blanket and wipe away the blood. thank god its black. When the blood stops i change into a black shirt just in case and i close my eyes laying back in bed putting my head phones on and i drown into the music of Lana Del Ray.
I felt someone shake me and i open my eyes to see Ally " Hey cmmon we have to get ready" i nod saying thank you and sit up streching and i walk over to hair and make up..... When im done with that i put on my dress for today and walk out of the bus.. Camila comes up to me and says in a low tone " Are you still mad?" i shrug not knowing how to feel anymore and i walk behind a very happy Dinah and Normani to the Venue.
After the show i walked back into the bus changed my clothes then i sat on my bunk with my legs hanging out and camila passes by " Hey.." i say and she turns with a little smile on her face " Ello" she says trying to be british and i giggle... silly camila... i point my finger to her telling her to come to me and she stands between my legs. I wrap my legs around her and she kisses me slowly and i feel her smile into this passionate kiss. " I love you Lolo... your my one and only ok?" i nod pecking her lips once more and she bites her lips slipping her hands under my shirt and i gasp " babe your hands are freezing!" she smiles and kisses my neck " Then help me warm them!" i was so caught in the moment that when camila started rubbing her hands up and down my tummy i didnt even realize how stupid i was being... " Lolo...." she says in a weird tone " Yeah babe?" i ask, Camila lifts my shirt up reveling all the scares i had made earlier today and i jump back pulling my shirt down and all there was was silence until camila spoke up " Lauren.... it was my fault, right?" i release a breath i had been holding in since i jump back and i didnt even realize it " i shake my head but im totally lieing cause it is all her fault... and Cody's " im sorry cam..." she dosent even let me finish before she walks away going into her bunk and i sit there still at the edge letting tears slowly roll down my face... I look around to find Normani cause she is the only one that can help but i remeber her and Dinah went to dinner with her family... I lay back in my bunk and i stare at camilas closed curtain " Please Camz...." ... no answer. I close my curtain trying to control my crying but i cant. I slowly cry myself to sleep asking myself why did Camila leave me like that... I need her...
Camila POV
After seeing what i have done to Lauren i knew what i had to do.... I jumped into my bunk putting the pillow over my face trying to stop myself from breathing but it really dose not work. i let tears roll down the sides of my face while i think of how badly i hurt lauren for her to do that. and i feel my phone vibrate
From: Cody Koala Simpson
Ello love so do i ever get an answer about that date?
i scream throwing my phone across the bed and it his the wall of the bus, I lay there all night thinking about how awful i am.... What have i done.
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HarmonizeAmerica ( Camren ) Fifth Harmony
FanfictionThe girls of fifth harmony got 3rd place in American XFactor and are now going on there nation wide tour in America. the girls will now be closer than ever on there journey, but will some get a bit too close?