I had realised that I needed my parents so much. They have given birth to me. They have raised me. They have loved me, even though I was horrible. They have cared about me, even though their son died.
The door opened.
It was my mum. She looked at me and suddenly started crying. And that's what I did too. I fell into her arms and we hugged tight. I heard Hervé leaving
behind us.
I love my mum.
Finally we let go and she smiled.
" I'm so sorry mum, I have been acting so horrible "
" That's okay, sweetheart, I missed you so much! I was so worried about you! "
We hugged again. Then we both got inside and I decided to take a shower first. After that I got back downstairs and talked to my mum about fun stuff. Not about Ally, the fighting, Instagram, my drinking, Vincent, soccer training... No, we talked about stuff she liked.
I was so happy to see her back.
But I still didn't feel as good as when I left here.
My mum didn't mention anything about what happened before and I was glad because of that. In the evening my dad got home too and I must say that was an amazing evening.
***
The next day, after breakfast I decided to go and try to speak with Ally. It has been some weeks ago since everything happened and I wanted to make it right.
Sometimes I realised I really need her in my life.
I stood in front of her house, my heart beating really fast. I was scared of what she would say. Would she even open the door?
Ding dong.
The door opened slowly.
" Clara, I don't want to speak to you anymore. You knock out my best friend and just leave. I mean, I thought I knew you but clearly not and I don't want to be a monster's friend, I'm sorry " and she shot the door closed.
At least she didn't scream. She said it in her humble way and I appreciated that.
But deep inside, it hurt as fuck.
I sighed deeply and made my way to the trainstation. I took the train to the city because I had to go to school today. I had decided to get up early and go to Ally's and have a talk there but I didn't have the talk so I had some time left.
Once arrived in the city I would use that time. I went to the amazing store I where met Henry for the first time, the Lookalike store, and bought black jeans and black tshirts, black sweaters, mostly from DYJCode.
After that I went to another store where they sell drinks and stuff.
I couldn't help it.
I bought some cigarettes and once outside I wanted to smoke so badly and that's exactly what I did. It felt good to be honest.
I wasn't about to smoke packages a day but when I would feel bad, I could use one.
When it was time to take my way to school, I threw the cigarette on the ground and started walking. I arrived right on time. It was 8:28am and school starts at 8:30am.
