If There Is A Tomorrow

Chapter 17

The weather was the kind that felt like a kiss if summer without the fiery heat of noon time. The grass was a soft green that almost had a hint of blue and in the sky had enough flawless white cloud to show you how beautiful the sky was, how perfect. The concrete of the path was warm under Maya's bare feet. Maya stopped and then closed her eyes so that she could focus on the sounds around her. She could hear the beautiful blackbird song. It was the most peaceful music she had ever heard. She opened her eyes and let the daylight flood back in. Then she sat cross legged on the weed filled lawn and looked for the flowers she loved and the deep red roses that father had loved. 

Maya wanted today to be a peaceful, pleasant day. Just then Adam arrived from behind her and messed her hair. 'Oii', Maya shouted from the top of her lungs angrily, as he just wrecked her peaceful, personal time.

'Hey.' He said happily. Maya didn't say anything but just stared at his face. 'Ok look, I'm sorry for getting annoyed at you yesterday.' Still Maya didn't bother to reply but instead started to make a daisy chain for herself. Adam sat down next to her brushing her bare legs with his jeans. Maya uncomfortably slightly moved away from him. 'Maya, what's wrong?' Maya's heart started to hurt a little. It felt as though someone was pinching it. She shook her head slowly but still didn't say anything.

None of them spoke for a few minutes. Just then Harris walked over to the two of them. 'Hi,' he greeted. Maya looked up to look at him. The sun was shining into her eyes. She put her hand over her eyes to protect them from the sun and to take a good look at Harris. 'Hey,' she replied smiling. She started to get excited to see him. Adam stared at Harris and then Maya. She was excited to see Harris but Adam?                      

'Can I sit with you guys if that's ok?' Harris asked uncomfortably. He didn't want to be coming in between Adam and Maya.

'Harris this is Adam and Adam this is Harris.' Maya said introducing them to each other. Adam stood up to face Harris. He took his hand out indication to shake it. Hesitantly, Harris managed to get his hand out of his pocket and shake Adam's hand. Adam hugged Harris unexpectedly. Maya stared at the both of the in shock. Harris was also shocked at this situation. His heart was thumping faster and faster. His palms became all sweaty and his face turned a bright pink. He was meeting Maya's 'boyfriend' after all.

After a while they were all sat in the field talking with each other. Maya was paying a lot of attention to Harris and not to Adam which made him really angry. Jealousy pierced through his heart. Was Harris Maya's boyfriend? He thought to himself. Throughout the whole conversation Adam was staring at Harris as if he wanted to kill him. Harris noticed this and started to fidget because he was getting scared. Adam looked like a gangster too. If Adam gets the wrong idea of Harris then he will be dead Harris thought to himself.

Harris also started to pay attention at Adam. What did Adam have that Harris didn't? Did Maya really like guys who liked ruffed like a gangster? Harris looked at Adam's scar on his cheek. Did Maya like that scar? What was the story behind that scar?

When Maya had got home she looked through her peach, small bag for her phone. She found a piece of paper in it. She didn't remember putting any sort paper in her bag. The paper was a neatly folded in four. Maya carefully opened the note and read it.

Life changes its beauty all the time. Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is light. Live every moment here to your fullest. The time that is here may not be tomorrow. It is difficult to meet a person. That loves you whole-heartedly. If there is someone like that somewhere. That person is more beautiful than all. Grab onto that person's hand. That grateful being may not be there tomorrow. The time that is here may not be tomorrow. If someone takes the shadow of your eyelids, when someone comes near. Even if you try to control the heart a million times. Your heart just goes on beating. But think that which is here in this moment. That story may not be here tomorrow. Life changes its beauty all the time. Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight. Live every moment here to your fullest. The time that is here may not be tomorrow. The time that is here may not be tomorrow

Tears pricked Maya's eyes as she read this. Her heart started pounding out of her rib cages. She wanted to go and hug Harris tightly. She knew it was him writing the notes. She wanted to have a normal life everyone else was blessed with. She wanted to live, laugh and love. This was impossible for her to accomplish because of the boundaries she would set for herself. She only had a few days to live in this world that she loved.

Maya wiped the tear that was falling down her cheek and took a deep breath in and let it out. She walked over to her mirror and looked in it seeing the reflection of the depressed, sad, not knowing how to live girl, Maya. She remembered the time when Harris used to annoy her because she didn't know how to smile. 'One Two Three Cheese', was all she could hear in her head. Harris' voice, memories and messages were floating in Maya's head. She tried to put on a fake smile but it didn't work. Tears just continuously poured out. She again wiped them from the back of her hand. This time she walked straight to the window and looked out. She saw Harris waiting there for her patiently. He waved uncontrollably when he saw her. Maya wore her fake smile and waved back.

'Thank you.' She mouthed. He smiled. Maya stood there and admired Harris. His chestnut brown, luscious hair, his beautiful milky skin, his well-cut beard which framed his face charmingly, his soft brown eyes which looked more chocolaty every single day, his well-built and masculine body which was quite attractive, his cute voice and his beautiful smile. Maya smiled as she was staring at him with love showering in her eyes. Everything that a girl had always wanted was right in front of her. But she didn't and couldn't ever own him. He was all Natasha's. Not Maya's. Maya's heart sank in and tears started flowing out again. She ran back to her room and lay there quietly staring into the ceiling wondering how Natasha would be.