Chapter 2
I clamp my eyes shut and listen to the heavy breathes Josh is talking over the speaker. He must be crying a lot if he is breathing like that. I keep my eyes close and let out a sigh. I don't bother to respond and just wait for him to response.
"Elise.." He trails off again taking a deep breathe. "I can't do this I need to speak to you in person."
Tears brim the corner of my eyes as I listen to his voice crack. Guilt is all I am are able to think. Guilt is clouding his thoughts and is making him go mad. He cant deal with what he has done and it is eating him alive. I bring the phone closer to my ear and pull the sheets up to my neck.
"I need to.." His voice cracks again. "now."
I sigh and tears stain my cheeks. I quickly wipe them away with the back of my hand focusing back onto the conversation.
"Now?" I sniffle. My heart warms at the thought of seeing his face again but I quickly shake that out of your mind. He hurt you. My subconscious adds.
"Yes, meet me at my apartment." Was the last thing he said before hanging up. I lock my phone and drop it on my bed. Hes back already? They must have finished editing the movie.
Josh brought an apartment near my house when I was still a junior in high school. Since he was already done with school he could buy his own house and live on his own. He decided to stick with his acting and not go to college. I on the other hand wanedt to go to college. I aM now 18 and in my last month of high school. I have my own car for when I want to go somewhere without anyone having to stop me.
I pull on a sweater and change into a pair of sweats. I keep my hair in the messy bun and grab my keys walking out the door. I tell MY parents I am going to Josh's house to talk and they just nod their heads and my sister doesn't even bother to turn.
Hoping into my car I start the ignition and drive towards his house. He's only like about 10 blocks away. He moved close so me so we could walk to each others houses when ever we wanted to. I was now looking into buying my own apartment though for college so I could live near by where I were going. I grip the wheel tighter as I pull in front of his house. Turning off the car and open the door and make my way towards the front. Josh gave me an extra key in case I needed something if when he wasn't there. I pulled out my keys and open the apartment door.
I walk inside and close the door quietly behind me. I instantly regret ever coming here so I turn to walk out but I get stopped by the sound of soft sobs coming from the other room. I walk further into the house and find Josh sitting on the kitchen floor with his knees brought to his chest, sobbing into one hand and a half drunken bottle of vodka in the other.
I stop in myr tracks and pierce my lips together. Why was he doing this? Why is he drinking? Didn't he stop? I let out the breathe I did not know I was even holding in and regret it instantly. Josh hears me and looks up from his hand that he was sobbing in. His eye lock with mine and look away. His eyes are red and unfallen tears were still there.
"You came.." He states quietly. I can feel his eyes locked on me and its burning right through my skin.
"Yeah." I say under my breathe. I don't even dare look in his direction.
"I can't believe you came." His feet stomp on the ground from him getting up. I don't even move from my spot when he makes his way in front of me. "You came." He says again.
I keep my eyes locked on the ground and Josh talks another gulp of his vodka before putting it onto the counter. My arms cross and he grabs onto my face in his hands forcing me to look at him. Our eyes lock for a split second and I close them shut. Piercing your lips together when he speaks again.
"I've missed you so much." He slurs wiping my cheek with the pad of his thumb making all the tears slide away that I didn't even know were there.
"You're drunk." I choke out.
"Maybe I am." He grins reaching back over to grab the bottle of clear liquid. When he tries bringing it to his lips I grab it out of his hands and place it back onto the counter. His jaw clenches and anger takes over his body.
"Don't.." I trail off putting my hand onto his arm. His body only softened a little.
"Why shouldn't I?!" His voice rises. "It's not like you care. You left me alone for the past days. Alone."
"And I wasn't?" I say coldly turning away. He can't really be doing this right now.
I take a step back and Josh goes to take a step forward but wobbles backwards. I look away as he grabs the bottle again and takes a swipe of it. He motions for my to take a sip but I push it away.
"You know," Josh leans back onto the counter with his elbows loosely holding the bottle. "I never meant that."
I just nod and he balls his hand up in anger and gripped the bottle tighter. I dont dare move when I feel his hot breath inching up my neck.
"You mean the world to me." He harshly says. "But you ignored me. Didn't talk to me."
I blink away the tears and bite my bottom lip to try and stop more from falling.
"I didn't want to. You gave me a reason too." I muster up to say.
I flinch when the bottle of vodka hits the wall behind me but I still don't move.
"I know! God damnit!" He roars through out the room. He turns around and runs his hand through his hand cautiously. He paces around the room and I stay in the spot I was still in. "I didn't mean it!" He stops and grabs the plates left on the counter and flings it to the cabinets.
He walks over to me and grabs my wrists pinning them to the wall.
"I would never mean to do that." He whispers in my ear, sending chills down my spin. My breahting hitches. When I don't respond he grips my wrists tighter and I wince in pain.
"You're hurting me." I cry, trying to move out of his grip. His features soften again and he lets go.
"I'm sorr-, no, I didn't.." He trails off and drops his head down.
I rub my wrists hoping that the pain will subside but it doesn't. Black and blue is already forming around them. Josh punches his hand to the wall and screams.
"I fucked up!" He cries.
I look up at the use of his language but just let it slide. He is pacing around the room again crying. He kicks away things that get in his way. He stops and slides down the wall sobbing into his knees.
Tears fall down my checks when I look at him. I am confused, I don't know if I should forgive him or not. My heart says to but my mind says I shouldn't. I step over the glass and slide down next to him.
"You hurt me. Tore apart my heart," I wipe away the tears with my sleeve. "left me alone.." I whisper the last part.
"I know." He looks up at me still crying. "You could never forgive me." He places his head on my shoulder and cries while I wrap my arm around his shoulder.
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Yeah.. next chapter. How is this so far? I hope its good :)
~Katrina
