Chapter 12
I pace back and forth around my dorm room tugging on my hair. Louis is on his phone typing away and Katrina and Zayn are eating their pizza silently. I pace back and forth in the room until finally I finally collapse in front of my bed. I sob into my shirt and my friends let me have my mental break down moment. They know better than to get involved in a moment like this because of what happened last time. I almost strangled Louis when he tried to calm me down.
"Make the pain go away!" You scream. You claw into your knees as you think of something that could take away the gaping whole of pain in your heart. Zayn clears his throat and walks outside with Katrina to get some air. "I want all this pain to just go away!"
You look over to Louis and he nods piercing his lips together. You let out a scream and pull on your hair. Louis lets out a sigh and jumps off your bed sitting next to you. "You need to talk to him sometime." He tells the truth. You know you need to talk to Josh but you don't think your heart will be able to take it.
"I know." You frown and hide your face in your knees wrapping your arms around them.
"You're going to talk to him soon." Louis says rubbing circles on your back.
You shake your head, "How soon? I don't know when. Plus I won't be able to deal. Maybe it's for the best that we don't talk."
"You are going to talk to him like now." Louis smiles. You raise your brow and look at him. Tears stain your cheeks and you makeup and smudged. "I texted him. Last week was his last day on set for a while. Hes back and hes heading here now."
You shake your head uncontrollably, "No. no, no, no,no," It all you say in between breathes. "No!"
"It was going to happen!" Louis raises his voice slightly. "I can't stand seeing you mop around anymore."
"Louis I'm not ready to face him!" You yell getting up from your spot and sitting on the edge on your bed.
"Yes you are." He whispers sitting in his same spot on the floor. "You just keep telling yourself that your aren't."
"Louis! I'm not ready at all!" You fight back. "If I was ready then I would call him myself and, ugh!"
"No you wouldn't" Louis mumbles. You get up and put your shoes on and wipe away the excess makeup on your face.
"I'm not staying here if he is coming." You state throwing on your other UGG boot. Currently you are wearing a pair of sweat pants and a over sized sweater with your college name on it. Don't forget the UGG boots. You grab your keys off the desk and make your way over to the dorm door.
"You are not leaving!" Louis grabs your wrist and pulls you back into the room.
"Let go Louis!" You yell trying to squirm out of his grip which only causes him to grip your wrist tighter. "Let go!"
"No!" Louis sits you down on your desk chair and stands in front of you blocking your path. "You are going to talk to him!"
"No I'm not!" You scream trying to get up and Louis only pushes you back down. "Let me leave!"
"No!" Louis keeps fighting. You cross your arm over you chest and pout but this doesn't work with him. It always use to work on Josh. Every time you pout he would get you what you wanted. Hilarious it was. You heart wants to see Josh but your mind is telling you to run. Run far away from here. Seeing him is just going to break you more than you already are broken. If only you could punch Louis away you could run but he wont even budge.
You hear the door knob fumble and open up. You let out a breathe you didn't even know you were holding in when you see Zayn and Katrina walk back inside. "Josh is coming." Louis exclaims. The nod in understandment of what is happening. Louis doesn't move from his spot in over 20 minutes. You pout the whole time but that doesn't get him to go away.
"I just want to leave." You sigh looking at the ground.
"Nope!" Katrina chirps. "You are going to see Josh and that's it!"
"Yeah," Zayn agrees, "What she said."
You laugh at Zayns lack of words and Louis shakes his head. "At least come up with your own reason Zayn." Katrina groans.
He chuckles, "Nope. It's much easier to just agree."
You laugh again and then remember that Josh might be here any minute. "What will it be to let me leave?"
"Nothing. You can't leave." Louis and Zayn say at the same time.
You punch Louis in the chest and he pretends to act hurt, "Ow. So much pain."
"Shut up." You say under your breathe and cross your arms again.
There's a knock at the door and Zayn opens in revealing Josh. You try to jump over Louis's arms but he hold you down. Josh smiles and hugs Katrina and gives Zayn a hand shake. He looks over to Louis and sees you and his smile instantly fades. He walks over to Louis and pats his back. Louis loosens him grip on you and you sit back down on the chair staring at the ground, never looking up.
"We will leave now." Louis smiles. You look up at them leaving and Katrina gives you a reasurring nod before walking out the door. Josh sits down at the edge on your bed and turns towards you. You look back down instantly.
"Louis texted me," He begins.
"I know." You snap.
He lets out a heavy sigh, "He says its time that we," He trails off for a moment looking around the room. "talk. I think so too.
"Yep." You simply say. "I was forced under my will to do this."
Josh lets out another sigh, "It doesn't have to be like this Elise."
"Be like what?!" You raise to your feet and cross your arms over your chest looking directly at Josh. His eyes locks with yours and neither of you turn away. "You think just coming here today that everything would be all fine and dandy! No it doesn't work that way."
"I know but,"
You cut him off. "But nothing."
You grab your keys off the desk again and walk straight out the dorm room. "Elise!" Josh screams over you. "Elise!" You walk out the glass door into the cold winter air. You shiver because you forgot your jacket but you won't let that affect you know. "Elise!" Josh grabs your wrist and turn your around. That same familiarity of electric shock fills your body every time you both touch. You wince at the familiarity but he doesn't let go. "Please can we talk." He begs. Tears brim his eyes once again.
"There is nothing to talk about." You whisper and tug your arm out of his grip.
You turn and run off to your car never turning back.
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Before you all slap me. This is meant to be a short chapter. It's just a filler. I didn't want to put all the action into this chapter because then later I would have nothing to write about. Trust me there is plenty more to come.
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I just came back from the store and got the new seventeen magazine with Josh Hutcherson on the cover. Who else got it?
Anyway byeee.
~Katrina
