Exquisite Pain (Garmau)

Chapter 19 Losing

Perfect isn't what we are, it's what we want to be.
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I opened my eyes, the midnight moon flowing through my window. The sound of tapping had woken me up.

I looked out my window to see Aphmau smirking. I lazily walked out of my bed and slid open the window pane.

"What's going on?" I yawned.

"Come with me."

"Where?"

"Midnight stroll," she shrugged, offering her hand. I rose an eyebrow, but took her hand anyways. She pulled me out of the window, flying me into the air. "Wrap your hands around my waist so that I'm not struggling to carry you," she ordered. I listened and wrapped my arms around her waist.

We landed on the wooden platform where I saw her earlier this morning.

"Nice view," I commented looking out at the horizon.

"Yeah..." She sighed, "so I think there's some things we need to talk about."

"And that is?"

"I think we should be honest with each other."

"Yeah, it would make sense," we sat on the ledge, closer than just two "Friends" would.

"And after all...not everything exchanged between us was a lie...right?" She leaned in a little.

Maybe it was the moonlight.

"Right..." I responded, leaning in a little too.

Or maybe it was the way her eyes seemed to twinkle brighter than the stars.

"So we should probably straighten out what was lies, and what was the truth...right?"

Perhaps it was the tranquility of the night.

"Right..." Our tones became hushed, careful not to disturb the sleeping night.

Maybe it was all just a spur of the moment thing, but as soon as our lips touched, we didn't pull apart.

As the kiss progressed, I moved my hands so they were around her, and she moved her hands to cup my jaw. We laid down, our lips still locked together.

And then we pulled apart for air, and that's when everything settled.

I just kissed Aphmau....

...AND I'M WITH ZOEY.

I jumped away from her, and she seemed to realise what happened too. She stood up and started pacing

"Oh Irene," she mumbled on repeat under her breath.

"Aphmau, what did we just do?"

"I wanted to just clear things up...you should go..."

"Yeah....I should."

I dived off the tree, weaving the air and letting myself gently land on the ground.

(I just realised Garroth is basically the avatar 0.o)

I walked back to my house, leaning on the door as I closed it behind me.

I plopped onto my bed and tried to get comfortable, but I couldn't. Every position felt like a knife to my side. And laying just on my back was like there was something sitting on my lungs.