Exquisite Pain (Garmau)

Chapter 23 Kids

I call her the devil because she makes me want to sin, and every time she knocks I can't help but let her in.
~Unknown
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I stared at the fire, not knowing how to react.

She said she loves me.

But she doesn't want to get in the way of my happiness, even if it costs her her own happiness in return.

"Something wrong? You've been staring at that fire four an hour..." Travis sat beside me, resting his feet.

"Shouldn't you be dancing with Katelyn?"

"My feet are killing me, she's in good hands with Nicole. But I can still watch and protect her from the sidelines...so what's wrong?"

"Nothing, just tired," I shrugged, lying through my teeth.

"It's Aphmau, isn't it?"

"What?"

"Oh come on, I know love when I see it."

"Impossible, I love Zoey," I lied.

"I never said you were the one in love with her."

"What are you talking about then?"

"Aphmau has loved you from the start, she hid it from you, and you know her feelings, and it's messed you up."

"How did you....how did you know that?"

"I didn't it was just a theory, but thank you for confirming it."

"Well it was just...really unexpected."

"Well how do you feel towards her?"

"I...making her fall for me was a mission my father had given to me. I guess part of me had started developing feelings for her, but since I came here...I'm with Zoey."

Travis nodded and kept his gaze on Katelyn.

"Well, I'm all about commitment, but the heart speaks. If you love someone, don't try and pretend otherwise. If you love Aphmau, break up with Zoey. If you love Zoey, don't hurt Aphmau more."

"I don't even know my own emotions anymore."

Katelyn ran over to us and sat next to Travis, resting her chin on his shoulder.

"Hey, this next song is a slow song, wanna dance?"

"My feet are killing me."

"Please? Just one dance? I promise I'll dance as spastically as you."

"I don't dance spastically."

"Then I'll be the only spaz out there...please, babe?"

"I don't dance spastically."

"Thank you," she grinned, getting up and grabbing his hand. She pulled him out to the dance floor and placed a hand on his shoulder, and he put a hand on her waist, they held hands with their empty ones, and slowly swayed to the music. He held her close, and she placed her head on his shoulder. I smiled as the song progressed, and they held each other tighter.

I walked over to Zoey and leaned down to her ear.

"I'm going to bed, I'll see you in the morning?"

"Yup, goodnight," she leaned her head up to kiss me, and I pecked her lips. Feeling nothing. I smiled at her and crawled into my tent.

In the morning, we packed up and went on the move.

It was strange, so far I had only been here around a week, and yet, they made me feel at home. It feels like I'd been here so much longer than I really have.