Never The End

Chapter 44 - The End

I felt Jason's cold lips move slowly.

"I love you."

His body went limp as I cradled it in my arms. Tears fell from my eyes onto his dirty T-shirt, dying it a dark grey. I pulled his close to my chest as his limbs trailed behind him. My heart was pounding out of my chest as I screamed. All my grief came flooding out of me as I yelled as loud as I could. It was like all my emotions were being freed after so long.

Losing him once was bad enough but losing him for the second time...

Jason's hair tickled my cheeks as I rested my head on his. My head was pulsing as all the blood rushed back to it. I kept praying he'd sit up and smile at me. I prayed that I'd see his eyes light up just one last time; that I'd feel his hand stroking my hair. I prayed that I'd have him back.

I felt empty inside.

It was as though Jason had taken all my pain with him, leaving me with nothing. Pulling out the ring from my pocket provided me with warmth. It was still hot from his grip. As I slotted it onto my finger, my mind shot to our first meeting. His ruffled hair shining in the dim lighting of the classroom, the coke stain on his shirt, his brown eyes boring into mine. The night we got drunk and danced for hours oblivious of anything. When he held me in his arms and we laughed for no reason. Stealing the CD and running together. Running as fast as we could in no particular direction and then him stopping and telling me how proud he was. His face when he pulled out the ring and asked me if I was prepared to spend the rest of my life with him. The last kiss we shared.

I spun the ring round gently, feeling the ridges of the carvings press into my skin.

Some people say it's easy to fall into love... but impossible to fall out of it... Once you've fallen, you're well and truly stuck.