Kissing In Cars

Life's Just Not Fair

*JAIME'S P.O.V.*

It just wasn't fair. Why was I any different? He's sweet. He's funny. But why not me? I couldn't help but think about how beautiful Sam is.

The first day we met her, her eyes caught my attention. Her light bronze, emerald green hazel eyes. Her nose piercing tied her face together into a perfect angelic face. Her laugh... it was just amazing. Nothing was better than making her laugh.

I punched my pillow and turned over to catch some sleep. But my eyes couldn't help but glaze over. I was so stupid! What was I thinking? I played the "Sam and Vic" game and I lost. I lost her. Without thinking I got up and walked down the hall.

*SAM'S P.O.V.*

Already having a sleepless night, I heard a knock on my door. Rubbing my eyes I got up and opened the door. This caused Tigger to meow loudly.

"Shh Tigger." Jaime whispered. "Sam? Can we talk?"

I was surprised. "Umm yeah sure. Come sit down." I motioned to the bed and sat down softly next to him. "What's up?"

"I wanted to... Tell you... That I'm... Jealous." He swallowed hard. "Of you and Vic." He looked away.

"So the rumors of Fuenciado are true?!" My face twisted.

"No! No!" Jaime chuckled softly. "I am jealous of Vic. Because... He has you. And I... I don't." Even in the dark room I could see he was blushing.

"Oh..." I was speechless. "Umm.. Why didn't you say anything? You're the one who told me to date Vic." I looked him right in the eyes. This obviously made him uncomfortable because he shifted.

"There's a rule on this bus and in the band. Whoever gets a girl first, the others back off and put up and shut up. Vic obviously got you first and to preserve the band and friendships we have, it's our job to support him. You guys are happy together and I'm glad you're happy.. I just wish it was with me."

I could feel the warmth coming from his body. Somehow we ended up very close. His eyes glittered in the hallway light that peeked into the dark room. My heart was breaking. This has never happened. Two people have never felt anything towards me at the same time. What do I do?

"Jaime.... I appreciate you telling me. Although you did a little too late.... I still appreciate it." I hugged him tightly. "You're very cute. And you're funny. You make me laugh a lot." I giggled while he tickled me. "You'll always be my best friend." I smiled but I felt his body slump in defeat. "What's wrong?"

"Best friend...." He frowned.

"Jaime... What do you want to be then? Besides my boyfriend?"

"I don't know Sam.." He closed his eyes and laid his head on my shoulder. My eyes teared up and before I knew it my lips were connected with his. Our lips moved in perfect harmony and just as soon as it happened, I pulled away. We started at each other for what felt like forever before Jaime got up and walked out. That night was the first night I cried myself asleep in a long time....

*JAIMES P.O.V.*

I knocked on Sam's door and waited for her to answer.

She's probably asleep... I thought. I was about to walk away when she opened the door rubbing her eyes. Tigger meowed loudly from the ruckus.

"Shh Tigger." I whispered.

Sam looked surprised. I asked if we could talk.

"Umm yeah sure." She invited me inside and sat down next to me. "What's up?"

My brain froze. I couldn't think properly. Her eyes still shined brightly even though she was exhausted and cheeks were a pinkish rose color. She had bed head but she still looked perfect.

"I wanted to... Tell you... That I'm... Jealous." I swallowed hard and continued. "Of you and Vic."

She looked grossed out. "So the rumors of Fuenciado are true?!"

I laughed softly and said no. I told her about how I was jealous that Vic had her. Her eyes dropped their focus to the floor and she seemed at a loss of words. I was afraid she hated me. I was afraid that she didn't feel the same way. When she mentioned a few days ago, when Mike and I told them they should date, I remembered the band rule.

Whoever gets the girl, the others back off. I had to explain this to Sam while she stared me down. I felt beyond uncomfortable. I moved a little closer to her as my eyes glazed over again.

"I'm glad you're happy... I just wish it was with me." I told her. She showed her appreciation and hugged me. I felt like everything would be okay.

"You're very cute. And you're funny. You make me laugh a lot." She giggled when I tickled her gently and hugged me tighter. "You'll always be my best friend."

My body shut down and my heart shattered into a million pieces.

"What's wrong?" She asked in a worried tone.

I frowned. "Best friend..."

"Jaime what do you want to be then? Besides my boyfriend?"

I laid my head on her shoulder and told her I didn't know. Because I didn't. What could I be? I couldn't be her boyfriend and I didn't want to be friendzoned. But that's all there was. I moved my head up slightly and she suddenly kissed me. Our lips blended together for a short time before she pulled away.

I don't think there's anything better than kissing Sam Johnson. I wished it didn't end but I'm glad it did. It gave me some sort of closure. We stared at each other for a long time before I got up and left. I walked back into my bunk and put my pillow over my face. The soft fabric of the pillowcase absorbed my tears like I wished my heart would the pain....