Falling For The Brit

Chapter 7: Memories

Chapter 7: Memories

 Via's POV

"Via, Viaaa, Viaaa...."

I carefully opened my eyes as the sunlight instantly caught me and I looked away to avoid light glare.

"What? Oww, that hurts!" I said, grabbing a fistful of my hair as I felt my head slowly throb.

"Via, dear. You slept through the whole Saturday and Sunday. I didn't want to wake you 'cause you had a high fever and... well..." My mom trailed off with a very worried expression plastered on her face.

"You heard about what happened, didn't you?" I asked, avoiding eye contact with my slightly watery eyes.

"I'm so sorry, Via." She consoled me and pulled me into a hug.

"I just don't understand, mom. W-what did I do wrong?" I questioned, biting my shaking lip and shutting my eyes close before feeling the tears stream down my cheeks.

"You didn't do anything wrong, dear. It's okay, just let it out." She said and I continued to sob on her shoulder.

"You always taught me to be strong, but after surviving all the struggles and hardships, why can't I fight this kind of pain?" I questioned, burying my face on her shoulder as she rubbed circles on my back.

"I'm obviously not the best love advice-giver, am I?" She chuckled, sadly. "I mean, just look at your father and I, but I do know this." She continued.

"What?" I asked her waiting for her response.

"It's called heartbreak, Via. That 'pain' that you feel, and no matter how strong you try to be, you can't fight the pain." She explained, and I just nodded at her words.

"I loved him, mom. I really did." I admitted, making my sentence through the weeps.

"But do know that I'll always be here for you no matter how many times you experience that." She told me, pointing to my heart.

"I'm not going... to." I said, through sniffles. "I'm not going to make the same stupid mistake ever again." I finished off what I was trying to tell her.

"What do you mean, dear?" My mom interrogated making me draw away from the hug to clarify.

"You remember when before da... I mean Luke left us? He said entering you life was a big mistake? He even called my brothers and I mistakes?" I shook my head reminiscing those dark moments in my life. Mom was waiting for what I was to say next, so I continued. "Well, my whole life, I'm sick and tired of making mistakes, being regarded of as a mistake! I hate it! I'm not going to fall in love again, mom! I just can't make another mistake anymore, especially not in love." I told her, wiping away the tears, in a very assertive manner.

"But sometimes, you have to understand Victoria. These mistakes sometimes teach you more about life. These mistakes were there to make you stronger. Like Kelly Clarkson says..."

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." We said in unison. I have to say, mom surely does know how to brighten the mood. I giggled at that and waited for mom to speak more of these words of wisdom.

"Anyway, aside from that. One more thing you need to consider is no matter how many times you try to fight it, you can't dictate your feelings. Love will be there, and you're going to find yourself falling head over heels for someone. It's absolutely impossible, Via. It's impossible for someone to not fall in love." She enlightened and I sighed.

"I understand." I muttered, bitterly.

"But!"

I looked back at her and even waited for more, "But, what you can do is make the most rational choice, and this type of choice is the one that doesn't require the wits."