Sex Diary 4

Chapter 1 (Uncomfortable Position)

I was holding on for dear life, trying not to lose my balance. He reassured me he got me and I was going to be ok. All the wind in my face and this view was making me more nervous. He slow stroked me just enough to make me climax. I was in an uncomfortable position but he was fucking me so good, I didn't even care. I was throwing this ass back, getting all that dick. He said he was about to nut so I turned around and let him nut all over my face. Yeah he nutted pretty quick, im not really tripping. We fucked in the car twice before we even got here. I enjoyed every second of it too. Even tho it wasn't long, I still enjoyed it. Let me fill y'all in on what's been going on with your girl.

Life here in Florida, been pretty good for me. I'm enjoying the married life with Jaylen. We just had some bomb ass sex on the ferris wheel. I know y'all wondering how we pull that off. It's Jayson's birthday so we got the park closed down just for him. I know it sound crazy we fucked while our son with us. Jayson on the other side of the park with his grandma and little sister. Morgan is doing great; she is so amazing. Me and Brit still cool as hell. I'm so glad I have her as a best friend. She really been down for me and I like that. We haven't talked about what we did to Keenan ass since that night. We agreed to put that behind us and never speak of it. I do miss New York but not enough to go back. My life been good and drama free. I refuse to go back to my old life. I miss Terrell sooooo much! Like words can't even describe how much I miss him. Through allll the bullshit I went through over the last few years, he been there for me every step of the way. I feel so guilty about him not being here. Once Keenan found out who he was, he took him away from me. Not only was he my protection and my legal help, he was special to me. Mane I lost so many people because of Keenan wack ass. Lakendra, Jayden, Slim, Pacman, and Terrell. If I wouldn't have been fucking with him, they all would be here with me today. Yeah I loved Jayden and I wanted to spend my life with him. I wouldn't have met Jaylen if Jayden wouldn't have died. I know that sound heartless but it's true. Jaylen has been an amazing husband and father. He has given me the life I always thought I would never have. At times I wonder, do I miss my old life. Missing fucking random niggas, missing meeting new men, and miss calling shots. Honestly, I don't miss none of that at all. I went through enough bullshit to know all dick, ain't safe dick. That's how my ass end up with AIDS in the first place.

Speaking of AIDS, Q has reached out to me a few times since I moved. He email me all the time asking how im doing and stuff. I do kind of miss him. After I started to get to know the real him, I started to really like him. We been through similar pain in our past, especially growing up. I haven't responded to none of his emails yet. I really don't wanna deal with anything from my past or that will remind me of my past. With me finally getting Keenan out of my life for good, ive been at complete peace. I thought he was out of my life when I got him locked up. This time I know for a fact his ass out my life for real. I have my moments where I slick miss him and the fun we had together. Yeah Keenan was a heartless, dirty, lowdown, selfish bitch but he understood me. Let me stop fucking tripping right now. How could I ever miss a man that caused me so much fucking pain? Enough about his wack ass, im about to have some fun with my son.

Ma come play with me, Jayson said. Ok, don't be cheating this time. Can I play, Jaylen asked? Nope, it's just me and my ma. I absolutely love the fact Jayson call me his mother. He welcomed me with open arms from the day I met him. He spends more time with me than Jaylen. It's kind of fair because Morgan spends more time with her dad than me. She is so spoiled because of him. He spoils her and I spoil Jayson. He is the sweetest young man I have ever met. At times, I just sit and look at my beautiful family. I am so happy this is my life now. I have an amazing husband, 2 beautiful kids, and I couldn't be happier. I sit and wonder, where would my life be if I didn't kill Keenan. Shit I probably be dead instead if I didn't. Why do I keep talking about this nigga? Yeah, me killing him been weighing heavy on me. I know I shouldn't feel bad at all. I did what I needed to do for me. I do wanna visit New York to see Dr. Franklin. I know he would be proud of where I am right now in life. I'll talk to Brit and see if she would go back to New York with me.

You having fun, Jaylen asked? Yeah dad, im having a great time. Thank y'all for doing this for me. My friends won't believe y'all closed the park down just for my birthday. Anything for you, Jaylen said. You ready to get out of here? Yeah, my sister looks tired. You wanna get something to eat before going home? No, ill ride home with grandma. Y'all can have some alone time. You sure? I'm sure, ill watch Morgan tonight and y'all can go do something. This is why Jayson so awesome. He always offers to watch Morgan while me and Jaylen have some alone time. After that quick fuck on the ferris wheel, I sure could use some more alone time. We won't be gone too long, don't give her any sweets. I know and don't let her beat up the dog. We'll see y'all later tonight, behave. We left the park and headed to get something to eat. Where you wanna go eat? I'm not really hungry, not for no food anyway. As soon as Jaylen said that, he stuck his head under my dress. Jaylen always been the best pussy eater I ever encountered. In the middle of him feeding his self, my phone rang. I didn't recognize the number so I ignored it. The same number called back again. Baby, let me see who this is. Hello? Hello, you have a collect call from "Olivia". Would you like to accept the charges? Yeah sure. Hello? Olivia! Crystal! What the hell you doing in jail? Girl, I lost it. What happened? Dominic was cheating on me like we suspected it. OMG! You killed the bitch? Not necessarily. What happened? I killed Dominic and the other man. MAN? Yes, Dominic was cheating with a man. I couldn't even say nothing after that. I followed him to a hotel, I told the front desk lady I was his wife and I was meeting him here. She gave me a key and I went up to the room. When I walked in, I didn't see him but I heard the shower going. I walked to the bathroom and I saw them in the shower kissing. The other dude told Dominic he loved him and Dominic said it back. OMG! I couldn't believe what I was witnessing with my own eyes. I was hoping and praying what I saw wasn't real. How did you end up killing them? I texted Dominic, pretending to be the dude. I told him to meet me at his office at 11 o clock. I texted the dude the same thing. I went there hours before to get everything set up. I hide in the closet and listened to them talk. Apparently Dominic was going to leave me for this man. He was getting impatient that Dominic didn't leave me like he said he was. I couldn't take no more so I knocked them out. I drugged them to the operating room and strapped them to a table. Dominic always like big titties so I figured why not give him his own set of titties. You didn't? Yes, I gave him some titties. A nice set of titties too. I woke both of them up and confronted them. Dominic said he was lonely or whatever because I had shut down. I really didn't pay attention to nothing he said honestly. I got a chainsaw and started sawing off parts of his little side piece. OMG! Yes girl, I completely snapped. I see, then what happened? I made Dominic think we were going to get through this and work it out. I kissed him one last time and watched him get sawed in half. I sat on the desk drinking and watching the destruction I caused. I heard police pull up and I didn't move an inch. I really didn't care at that point. His assistant walked in with the police. They saw what I did and arrested me. Girlllll! Wait, where is your daughter? She's with my dad. I was so furious; I didn't even think about her. I took away both of her parents because I let my emotions take over me. Damn, I know what you mean too. How you holding up in there? This is nothing like I expected it to be, Olivia said. It's like im here physically but mentally im not here. This just feels like a bad dream I can't wake up from. I know im going to spend the rest of my life in here. Crystal im only 19, im never getting out of here. Listen to me, stay strong. I know it's hard to do but you can do it. I've been in your position before so I know actually what you going through. Hang in there ok? I'm trying, I have to go. Ok, call me at any time.

Everything ok? Remember the girl I told you about Olivia? Yeah, I remember. Well her husband was cheating on her. Damn, Jaylen said. He was cheating with a man this whole time. DAMN! She followed him to a hotel and she actually saw them taking a shower together. She just lost it and killed them both in the worst possible way you can think of. I have to find a way to help her. Help her how? She killed 2 people, it ain't nothing you can do to help her. She's 19, spending her life in there is going to be torcher for her. You right but it ain't nothing you can do. Jaylen maybe right, it's going to be impossible for me to help her in any kind of way. I learned a lot from Terrell and I may can use some of his connections to do something to help. I know I can't help her get out no time soon but hopefully I can at least shorten her sentenced or something. I feel bad for my girl tho. I can understand her snapping and her paying for it. I'm not no saint, I done did some shit in my life too. If I was to catch Jaylen cheating with a man, I probably would kill both of they ass too. It ain't no probably, ill fuck both of them up. I spent 2 years in jail and I was miserable. She about to spend the rest of her life in there. I can only imagine what she about to go through.