The Ex

Chapter 29

The next day, didn't go so well. I felt weird around Ryan. Knowing what was on his mind obviously. After what he did yesterday, he must think about it. So, on our lunch break, I listened to my gut and made sure he knew that I wanted to slow down.
"Ok Ryan..." He sat across from me, putting cheese on his Alfredo.
"Yes babe?" He took a bite of his breadstick and looked at me.
"I just-I want you to know that, I-"
"I know...I promise..." He whispered. He felt really bad. It was obvious he was. He bit the inside of his lip and continued eating.
"So...what did you do yesterday?"
"Well, I mowed my lawn when I got home...it was so hot and sweaty...My showers messed up so I showered in hot water, I still feel hot. Do I look hot to you?" I laughed and he smiled. He always found a way to make me fall for him. At least I knew I could tell him to stop. We finished eating. We were getting out of work early today, so we drove to the water and sat at a picnic table. We were still in work clothes, which probably looked funny, but we didn't care. I finally felt normal with him and not as up-tight.
"I promise I'm not thinking about this. But, how many kids do you want to have in your life? What kind of life sounds perfect?" Once again, I felt fine. He knows how I feel about this.
"I want 2 kids, a boy and a girl. The boy first so he can look over his little sister. And I want a dog. A nice house and a husband that still acts young. But I don't want kids until I'm older. Way older. So I can actually live life without kids for a while."
"Sounds perfect to me." He smiled and I smiled back. We just watched the waves for a while.
"Amber?"
"Mm?"
"I really do love you I think."
"Awe...I think I love you too. But...well, ya know I-"
"I know. I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me. And I'm glad your going to be in my life." I smiled and watched the ocean.