The Ex

Chapter 32

"You said..."
"I know what I said..." We were talking quiet. I was half naked on my porch. I just wanted to go inside and cry.
"I guess I'm not ready for...all of this. Ryan I'm sorry I guess I led you on...i-I'm sorry I don't know what to say..." He blew a single breath and looked away. Breathing in sharply.
"How about you say nothing?" I looked down. I was about to say ok but I faced the door and grabbed the handle. Walking inside and shutting the door behind me. I took a huge breath in. It was shaky. I looked out the door window and Ryan was in his car. His head and hands on the steering wheel. He put it in reverse and charged out of my driveway. That's when I broke down. I was a mess. The small makeup that stayed on ran off. I went to my room. I plugged my phone it. The screen stayed black.
"What?" I said outloud. It was turned all the way off. I turned it on and there was a ton of notifications from grace. Most texts, but a few calls. I texted grace and told her we would go for lunch tomorrow. She texted back and agreed.
"How is everything? I'm glad you said something!"
"Nah, it's fine. I'm fine. We're fine." Real natural Amber good job. I rolled my eyes and my coverage.
"?? Alright...what time?"
"Noon, tomorrow. I'll pick you up and we can go to red lobster or something."
"Alright. I have a bad feeling." I do too. Something is really up. I put a frozen lasagna in the oven and took a shower, then I put some fresh clothes on, burying that lingerie in the hamper all the way to the bottom. I couldn't think about him at all. I would get sick. I tried to clear my mind. Putting the tv on, music, reading, social media, I even called grace but she couldn't answer cuz she was in a meeting for work. I was a mess. And he won't leave my mind.