We're a Beautiful Disaster

i cant love you

i reserve all rights to this story all plot/characters are mine,

 (Song on the side is, Beautiful Disaster, by Kelly Clarkson, i think it goes really well with this and yeah is pretty much what the book is named after, so i hope you like the story!)

May, 27, 2008, Friday ,2:55pm.

I stare at the clock five more minutes and i'll be done with school.i will never have to come back to this place,

By the way I'm, Baliy Evans.and i am 18 and i live with my well i guess you'd say foster dad, Jonathan Evans,

He is 22 and I've lived with him since i turned 14,and have known him since i was 3, and he was seven , And he is the closes thing to family i have he's the only person how cares if I'm dead or not, we only lived apart for one year since we met.

when he was 18 ,i had lived in three homes that year, it had been the worst of my life cause i was truly alone then, but at the end of the year i heard some one wanted to adopt me, John but he was still a nineteen year old boy, so it wasn't easy, but with some hard work and lots of money we had did it and I've never been better,but well i still had no friends,

But i had him and he hated when i called him dad though i jump when the bell rings, then i get up grab my bag and run out of the school i had already took everything from my locker, i couldn't wait to be done with school,

I jogged to the end of the parking lot where i knew John would be waiting for me, he was standing outside of his jeep, i started to run when i reached him he lifted me off the ground in a hug and spun me around.

"I DID IT, I DID IT, I PASSED AND I NEVER HAVE TO COME BACK." i yell excited

"After Saturday ." he says

"Yeah, i know." i say rolling my eyes he puts me down and looks at me,

"I am so proud of you." he says smiling down at me I smile back,

"And so am i" says another male voice, my smile is gone just like that, I look up as he gets out of the car.

"Drew, i thought you were in rehab." i say looking down at the ground i couldn't look him in the eyes,

"Oh come on you did you think id miss this?" he asks me,

"I thought you'd get the hint you wheren't invited." i say trying my best to sound firm, but i still sound like a little girl to me, and i hate that. 

"Ouch Bay that hurt" he says mocking pain

We all get in the car, Andrew, 'Drew' had been one of John's best friends and had gave us the money to get the adoption he was well rich, and last year my boyfriend but Drew has had problems with drugs and drinking for as long as I've known him, i had known this before dating him but he said he'd stop and he had.

Or so i thought  'til one day i come over and find him over dosed on some pills, it had scared me so bad for awhile i truly thought i would lose him, i had sat with him waiting for help crying and telling him it would be alright, though i hadn't really believed that, the worst part had been when he blacked out, it scared me.

But later at the E.R. they had helped him but were going to send him to rehab and i realised just how close we had gotten, and i couldn't let myself love him because this would never work out, and i just couldn't stand losing him.

I needed to leave, but i loved him so i gave him a chance to explain i had walked in to find him awake,....

"What happened? "I asked looking at him laying in the little bed, he's not looking at me but at the wall,