We're a Beautiful Disaster

life as we know it, over?

6:23.pm.Bay..p.o.v...... 

I open my eyes. 

They feel swolen. 

From crying. 

How could he?. 

I hugg my pillow tight. 

And what do i do now?. 

It'll be ok baby. 

What if the other girl gets pregnent?. 

Then what. 

I knew. 

Any way it goes. 

I could probley still get money from my parents. 

And they had told me i was welcome there. 

Would i still be now? 

Could they turn me away? 

In my time of need. 

Could i really leave John? 

I don't know. 

And i don't have too make any plans yet. 

But i know i won't give him the chance too hurt this baby like he has me. 

Yes i feel bad for him. 

But.he can't use that every time he messes up. 

I close my eyes. 

I can take care of us. 

We don't need him. 

He's bad. 

In more ways than one. 

I rubb my belly. 

I won't be pushed around anymore. 

I have too be strong. 

For you. 

"Knock knock you awake?"John says. 

"Yeah" 

He comes and sits on the bed. 

"You going too be ok?" 

"Yep.i was thinking." 

"Of?" 

"Of finding my parents.they could help me." 

"You know you don't have too.i can" 

"You have you're own baby too think about.and.i wouldn't have too see him." 

He sighs. 

"Yeah.whatever you think is best.but I'm still here for you" 

"I know. But its time too be a big girl now." 

He nodds. 

"I guess you stop being a baby when you have one." 

"Yeah." 

"But.i really don't think he's going too let you leave." 

"Yeah.i.don't know.tell him something" 

"Like?" 

"John.don't think I'm mean but.i really don't want him to think there is a baby anymore" 

"How would you do that? Oh." 

I nodd biteing my lip. 

He sighs. 

"Honey.this is you're choice." 

"I know.but i still don't want too hurt him.but i know he won't leave me alone"