We're a Beautiful Disaster

a lot crazy

Feb..10th...Thursday...9:14.am.... 

I open my eyes and look around the room and notice Drew isnt in here, sometimes he would get up before me if he woke up because he had been waking up before me, i guess ive just been real tired,

But he does usely wait on me to get up or sometimes he just gets me up when he's ready but whatever no big deal,

I get up out of the bed and go into the bath-room to wash my face and i pull my hair back into a messy bun, then i go into the bed room and grab a pair of seat pants and a shirt of his thats laying on the bed and put them on.

Then i leave the room and go down stairs, I walk into the kitchen and see that he is siting at the table eating a piece of taost,  his back is to me but i can tell theres just a edge about him, like he woke up in a bad mood or something,

"Morning." I say walking past him and looking back his face is blank and he doesnt look up at me, and i know something must be wrong.. 

"Yeah." he mumbles back 

"You ok?" i ask  geting a cup of coffee and turning back around to face him but leaning against the table by the sink,  

"Yeah." he says flatly, okay i know that he is not okay,  

"Are you sure?" i ask trying to get him to just tell me whats wrong, i thought we were past this! but i guess not..

"Yes I'm fine." he says  

"You don't sound 'fine' so just tell me." i say

"I'm ok! Leave me alone." he snaps  

"Ok fine! don't tell me, just calm down!" i say  

"I am calm." he snaps, uhg i could punch him in the face when he gets like this, i hate how he's fine and then he's ready to go after you for nothing! or maybe i did something to upset him?

Did i? or did i forget something? i think back to last night and even the last few days wondering what i said or did or maybe i forgot something i shouldnt have? but i cant come up with anything.. 

I take a drink of coffee, then im glad I'm by the sink because i have to spit it out, it taste weird and made me sick feeling, and i didnt like it, gosh what'd he do it the coffee?

"What ?" he said looking at me gagging a little and i turn back to face him again,  

"What's up with the coffee?" i ask. 

"Nothing its fine, what am i too stupid to even make the freaking coffee?" he snapped. 

"Maybe! gosh what is you're deal!?"i snap back tired of the way he's acting, i dont even know why! did i do something because if i did i'd like to know! 

He stands up slaming his chair back and it hits the floor and i jump a little at the loud sound, and i see the anger in his eyes, i just dont understand it.. 

"Right now you are my problem!" he snaps  

"Me? You're the one ready to fight for no reason! " 

"I am not!" 

"Oh yes you are! your freaking out and i havent done anything wrong!" 

"You haven't seen anything yet!" he yells coming to stand in front of me, now part of me is saying back off this won't end well!  but the stuborn part of me wont hear it out, but i know he's mad and that i shouldnt push him anymore,

And i must say that yes i am scared of him, when he gets like this he does stupid stuff, like hitting me or pushing me down stairs and he is bigger than me and right here i have to look up at him, and it scares me and that part is yelling to get out again but he has me traped..