48. Youngjae (P.I.R)

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by joyceaurelio

by joyceaurelio

Youngjae's POV

Was it just a dream? Or did it really happen?

I know you were with me when I slept last night but, when I woke up, you weren't by my side.

I looked all around my house to make sure that you were still here but in the end, I have lost all my hope to see you one more time.

You didn't even say goodbye.

You left me without saying anything to me.

You told me you were going to stay with me but I guess... it will not happen.

I remember all the days we spent together, going out on picnics, walking Coco every morning while we jog, celebrating each others' birthdays, jumping in fear over horror movies late at night, singing at karaokes, snuggling in each others' arms until we drift to sleep, just like last night.

Why can't I see you now?

I've tried calling your friends but they said to just stop already because they knew that it will just hurt me more.

I've also tried calling your parents but they told me that you've already went somewhere, somewhere very far away from me.

What did I do wrong?

I loved you with all my heart and took care of you even though at times, I was the one who needed it the most.

I would hide my sickness everytime because all I just wanted to do was to take care of you; I wanted to show you that I can't live without you, the one I loved first out of all the girls that I met.

I promised myself that you were going to be my first and my last.

But now that you're gone, I don't think I can live properly anymore.

You left me...

You left me hoping.

Yes, I hoped for you to come back to me but I don't think that time will come.

You've already moved on and lived another life with someone who can make you happier and safer. You're already living more free than when you were with me.

I guess it's just hard for me to let you go because for all I know, you are the most special girl... I had.

Yes, I had you in my arms but you were the one who first let go and now, I'm a fool for still clinging onto you, you who is now gone.

Gone...

Gone... forever.

And all I can say to you now is "I love you... and,"

"Rest in peace."

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And this is a proof that author-nim is running out of ideas. Well, I still hope you all liked it! >_<