Unexpectedly, you came to me

Chapter 9: Avoid

Christine's POV

I suddenly woke up with tears in my eyes. I was crying..... it was a bad dream. It was just a dream yet it feels so real and that makes me paranoid.

Sa panaginip ko, naaninag ko ang mukha ng mga mahal ko sa buhay na hawak ng mga grupo ng gangsters. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, nanginginig ang mga kamay ko. I heard Harry says he will risk his life in order to save them, but someone replied "it's not enough", he also added that they wants us to be gone. Harry and me.

Before I decided to walk in front of them, I heard a gunshots. And everything went black.

I silently cried on my bed when that event flashed on my mind. It makes me think that I'm not safe anymore, specially my family. Para bang bawat galaw ko, may nagmamasid sa akin. Nakakabaliw'.

Last day na ngayon ng pasok namin para sa week na ito. I felt relieved. Hangga't maari, gusto kong nasa bahay lang ako buong magdamag dahil pakiramdam ko kapag nasa ibang lugar ako, may mangyayaring hindi maganda.

Bumangon ako sa aking higaan bago pa ako katukin ni Mama dito sa'king kwarto. I glanced at the rear mirror in front of me. I look like a.... mess.
Namamaga ang aking mga mata at sobrang halata ng mga eyebags ko, para akong hindi nakatulog ng ilang araw.

Pinagsawalang bahala ko na lamang iyon. Pumasok na ako sa bathroom.
Binuksan ko kaagad ang shower at doon ay sumalubong sa akin ang malamig na tubig na dumadampi sa aking pagod katawan. The way the water flows in my body, makes me feel relaxed. I started to clean the parts of my body. I just did my daily routine. Hindi na ako nagtagal sa paliligo dahil kailangan ko ng magdali.

When I'm done with everything,I stretched my body while going downstairs. Nadatnan ko si Papa at Mama doon na nakaupo sa mesa. Saktong sumisimsim ng kape si Papa ng mapatingin sya sa akin.

"Why so early?" he asked, confused.

I just shrugged my shoulder as a response. Mom offered me a cup of tea, which is unusual. I furrowed my forehead to asked her what's that for.

"I know you're tired and sleepy. Look at your eyes"  she respond.

I noticed her piercing glance at me and I had no choice but to avoid it.

I started to eat my breakfast. Dad is in front of me while Mom was beside her. I'm a bit uncomfortable because of their stares. I can see it in my peripheral vision.

I eat faster than usual. Ininom ko na din ang kapeng tinimpla ni Mama dahil makakatulong nga ito upang hindi ako antukin sa klase.

"I'm leaving Mom... Dad"  I claimed while looking at them.

They just nodded at me. Our house was covered with silence until I came to my car. Binuhay ko ang engine ng aking sasakyan at nagsimulang mag-drive tungo sa paaralan. Habang papalayo, unti unting sumisikip ang aking dibdib.

Maybe, because I know that there are some guys who's finding me. Ironic isn't? Wala naman akong ginagawang masama, pero kung makapagtago ako, daig ko pa ang preso.

Because of that thought, the anger I've been feeling exploded inside me. I can't take this anymore. Sa tingin ko, mali ang naisip na paraan ni Harry. Dahil sa bawat magkasama kami, mas lalaki ang posibilidad na iisipin nila na mayroon nga kaming relasyon.

The best way for this, is to...avoid him. I need to avoid Harry.

Alam ko na makasariling desisyon ang naisip ko. But.. I'm just worrying about my safety. I know that Harry would suffer too. I'm just hoping that he will understand me.