Denial

ch. 28

Our stay in Miami has been bitter sweet. Unfortunately, our 4 months is up and we have to return to England in two days. God I don't wanna go back. My mother is such a negative soul it's contagious.

Oh how I wish you were still here dad.

I think to myself as I lay on my couch and I stare at the ceiling. When he was still with me he would always know how to make me feel better, my mother and father were polar opposites. My mother was this serious, business woman who was all about her reign while my father, on the other hand, was family oriented and full of kindness. I remember I would always hear my parents discuss and even argue about having another child, my dad was all for it but my mother, my mother was so bothered by the topic. It was until I found out that their marriage was set up by their parents that I realized that they weren't brought together by love.

What is love anyway? My whole life has been lead on the belief that love doesn't exist, it only exists in foolish people. And I was no fool. I was not going to let myself open up to someone just for them to have the advantage to destroy me whenever they had the chance. That's why I was the way I was and that's why I acted the way I did. But of course my mother didn't understand.

But Harry. Harry Styles is the one person who brought down my walls without even trying. He gathered all my senses all at once and made me feel like  nothing I've ever felt before. He made it seem so easy to fall in love yet so difficult to explain. That's what scared me the most, that's why I swore I hated him. It was definitely a foreign feeling I was scared to feel.

Em: Hey scar. Want to meet up at the coffee shop near your house?

This has to happen sooner or later. I miss Emily so much, I need her more now than ever. But I can't tell her why, I can't do that to her. It seemed to me that she really likes him and she'll just blame it all on me.

Yeah! Meet there in 5? I miss you Em.

I sigh.

Em: Sure thing scar. I miss you more

I set down my phone and get up to grab my hand bag. I head out and make my way to the coffee shop a couple blocks away. As I pull into a parking lot I front, I see Em sitting on a coffee table outside with, with Harry? What the hell?

I step out and shoot them a confused look and Em just gives me a smile.

She stands up as I approach and she engulfs me in a tight hug.

"I really really miss you scar" she whispers into my ear. I hug her back and hum.

A waitress comes with what I assume is a tray with tea that Em had previously ordered before I had arrived. I give a polite thank you and start putting sugars in my tea.

I look up to find Harry and Em look at each other as if waiting for one of them to speak up, especially since I haven't talked. It's just, I'm confused. Why is Harry here?

"How've you been Scar? Talk to me" I hear Em plead in a soft voice. I start to feel terrible for not being able to speak up or look much in their direction.

I smile, "A little tough is all, nothing I can't handle. And you?" What a lie. What a huge fucking lie. But he's here. I can't, I can't even hint as to why it's been so tough.

She frowns and looks at Harry. He leans over and places his hand on hers for comfort. Exactly the way he did with me.

"You know you can talk to me scar, you know I'm always here for you. I'm sorry for not telling you about Harry, I was just worried about how you'd react" she stated. Okay yeah, like I'm that scaring. He's my bodyguard for fucks sake! Why would she get worried about my reaction? Does she know, I was attracted to him?

"You had no reason too. I'm your best friend Em. I'm here so you can tell me stuff like that, not to let me find out on my own" I frown. I sit back and cross my arms across my chest. I see Harry eye my movement, he smirks then looks down. What's his deal?

"And you. Why are you here?" I signal at Harry. He looks over at me then to Emily.

"I was the one who gave both of you advice, I wanted to see my genius advice play out yeah?" He says and shrugs as if it's not a huge deal. What, do you want me to thank you?

"You want a cookie?" I taunt. As if, I'm not going to thank him.

"So, scar. Are we okay? I love you, you know that. And I know you hate apologies, but forgive me. pleeeeeeease" she says as she playfully pouts. I look at her and break out in a smile and a small giggle.

"Come here" I say as I get up to engulf her in a warm hug. I do miss my best friend.

"Well, my work here is done" I hear Harry say as he gets up and walks towards us.

Me and Em look at each other and I wink at her.

"Fuck off" we say at the same time as I put my hand around her shoulders and I walk her to Harry's car.

"I'll see you guys later. Call me Em!" I yell as I walk back to my car. I look over at Harry and he winks at me. I smile and roll my eyes.

What a prick.