Denial

ch. 60

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'Can I stop the flow of time, can I swim in your divine?
I don't think I can ever leave this place'

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"How is that- how is that possible? Why would you do that?" I whisper, keeping my gaze towards Kendall. I had this tendency, to watch every single movement of the body, to understand habits. Kendall, her habit was to lie.

"I-I was afraid" Is the only thing she manages to croak out. By that point, the dark brown t-shirt she had been wearing, had risen up revealing apart of her bulging tummy. I was raging.

"Afraid?! You, you could've ruined two lives. Harry's and that of the baby. Your excuse of fear is no match of pain, especially that conflicted upon the innocent. You threw the responsibility upon Harry, and you weren't going to tell him if this incident hadn't occurred" I murmured, tears spilling once more.
"I'm right. You weren't"

I could feel myself shaking, the rage and hurt mixed upon a layer of redemption. I knew my eyes were a bright red, it seems that I hadn't stopped crying in what seemed to be centuries. But this wasn't right, the baby's life could've been affected in some way if she were lied to about her father from her own mother.

"I had no choice. It was either that of my baby, or Harry's. I had detached any sort of connection between my baby and Greyson. Harry, he was a refuge" Kendall stumps, the words caught in my throat completely as I blinked a few times. Allowing tears to make the run and escape.

"This- this is fucked up" I murmur, my eyes becoming a bit dry from the trance I'd fallen into as I'd look straight into Kendall's dark brown ones.

"I can explain I just need-"

"Don't" The tone in my voice becoming louder, as my hand came up to signal her to not continue.

"I don't, I can't know this. I don't need the explanation, Harry does" I mumble, turning away from Kendall and hugging my torso.

"I can't loose him" She whispers, the shaking in her voice from tears blocking any sort of common sense left to in dure.

She couldn't loose him? She had taken him away from me, she was the reason for the pain I had felt upon feeling as if I had lost him. And now, I had actually lost him.

"If you don't, I will" Is all I say, before making my way to the entrance of Niall's place.

I regret it. The way I had handled it, was wrong and out of place for me in the situation. Too many lives were at stake and I couldn't be the cause of pain for any of them. But, I'm vulnerable, I always have been.

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"Oh my god"

A warm embrace almost topples me to the tiled floor as short giggles escaped my lips, finally regaining my balance and returning the gesture.

"Nice to see you too Em" I murmur warmly, glancing at her with a small smile.

She had changed, her light brown hair was now a jaded midnight black. Her skin a bit darker as well, but the same friendly hazel eyes welcomed me as if I never left.