I was still even feeding her as a mother, I knew that would effect my health, and mind. I knew I would go to the hospital about it, so I wouldn't get sick and not know what to do. After the funeral, and all of the person stuff, the day ended in tears again. I was still dealing with my feelings as a person still.
I go to work, we discuss the case, and the day ends quickly. I was focused, I tried my hardest, and the day went by quickly. I drove to the hospital. I had made an appointment anyway, so I head on in. I didn't want Aiden to know, and I have the appointment. The doctor prescribes me to these pills, that I honestly didn't want Aiden to know about them. But, he was a doctor, so he probably knew. Once at home after everything, Aiden wasn't home yet. He would pick up Raina he said, I have the pill, with an Advil. I sigh and go upstairs. I didn't have anything to do, literally. Going into my room, I change into something to wear around the house, and go back into the hallway. I didn't have anything to do. I was bored, for once, I had nothing to do. I was so tired, and so, just pointing this out for everyone who doesn't know this. When you are tired+nothing to do= SLEEP! So I did so.
I didn't wake up for a while, but [eventually] I did. I do my hair, putting it up in a simple pony-tail. I go into Raina's room. She stood in her crib, staring at me. "Mommy, man came over here." She whispered. "What? What did he look like?" I ask her quietly as well. "Scary." She says and shakes her head. "Raina, I want you to sit here and scream if anyone touches you are comes in here." I say and quickly run out of the room and grab my gun. I load it and go downstairs. "Anyone in here?!" I yell in my best FBI voice, which was successful. I point my gun straight forward, turning on the lights I passed. "Aiden, if that's you, I swear..." I say. I hear small clacking. "Who's there!?" I yell this time even louder. I go into the small hallway. I hear someone in the bathroom... I kick the door at my hardest, and it flings open. "Who are you and what are you doing in my house?!" I yell. "Answer me!" I scream. They put they're hands up. "Is it just you?" I ask. This man is a phyco... I think to myself, being realistic. Trying to get high from smelling cleaning supplies? "You're not alone..." He sings out. "What?" I ask, surprised. Someone pops out of the shower, which I scream out at, and tries to cut me. They succeed, and I knew this was serious. My arm begins to bleed and I point my gun at him. "You son of a..." I say and pull the trigger twice. He falls to the ground the other one lunges at me. "Get on the floor!" I yell at him. I shoot again. I hear a scream. Raina. I knew this would be hard, but I would protect Raina. I knew the man was only half dead, but I run out of there, nearly slipping on blood, and run upstairs as fast as I could. I go into the room and yell, "Raina, get down!" I was nearly to tears by the amount of noise. I just hold my gun out and shoot at the man. "Mommy!" Raina says after a moment and I knew she was okay. I run out of there with her and out the front door. I hold onto Raina tightly and open the door. The door wouldn't open fully, so I slide thought the open part with Raina. I take a look at what is holding blocking the door. I take a look at begin to sob at what I find. A pool of blood, and Aiden... Lying there. I scream, because that is what horrified me the most. In the blood, I find a note swimming around in the pool of blood. In the note it said, "The truth is in my jacket. Please forgive me." The not said. I stare at his chest. I hold Raina tightly as I search through his bloody jacket. I sobbed as I did so. I look through it until I find a video tape. I stare at it for a moment hug him. "No... You can't just leave me!" I say and cry harder. I check his pulse. He was gone. Finally, I go inside and take my phone. I call Hotch and tell him everything, crying through the whole thing. I tell him everything. What had happened, and where I was then. I told him I honestly had no idea what to do. "Call the police Liz. I'll be there." He says and hangs up with me. I didn't know what to do but tell the police the same thing. I was a mess after that. I had everything inside my house. I honestly didn't know what to do. I stand up, after getting stitches on my arm. The men in the house were all dead except the man I shot once. He was in intense condition. I felt horrible. I tell Hotch that I knew this was my fault. "No it's not Liz." He says. "Yes it is, look at Aiden's mom. Raina is never going to see her dad or sister ever again. So many people are dead." I say and he sighs. "It's apart of the job. Liz, is there anyone who doesn't like your family at all?" He asks. "No I guess not. We didn't 'hate' anyone, because we didn't really have any good family friends. Nobody could really hate us without them knowing us." I say.
