"This can not only kill you, but your child as well. You need to stay out of the field, and eat more. You look like a skeleton to me, right now." She says. I begin to cry in my hands, and realise I couldn't stop. I couldn't realise before, I was killing myself. I was killing myself right before my eyes. I really needed to stop. "I'm going to give you a needle, where you will be taking your food." She says, and explains how to put it in. I nod, and when I had calmed down enough, I left with the needles and tubes. I had the liquid and the little bags. I felt awful.
I arrive at the hospital to visit Mary, after picking up the girls. Arriving at the hospital and in the room with Mary, she looked much better. The doctor said she would be free to go home soon too. She changes into her normal clothes, and we go home. "Mary, how are you feeling?" I ask. "Perfect." She says, and looks at me for a moment. "Mom.... Your really... Really skinny." She says. I touch my stomach. "Honey, I'm sick. There's no need to worry though." I say, adding the end quickly. She nods. "Mom, can you still go to work like that?" She asks. "Yes..." I say. "Your doctor called. She left a message, and it played out loud. It was a reminder not to go to work." She says quickly. "Honey, she just said to stay out of the field. I am. The baby is just making me sick. That's all." I say. She nods, and everyone heads to their rooms, leaving me alone downstairs. I make dinner for the girls, and go upstairs, calling them. "Are you coming?" Raina asks. "No, it's alright. I got it up here." I say. Raina stops, and scans the room. "Where?" She asks. I hold up the liquid and needles, and she stares. "Mom, can I be honest and tell you what the girls think?" She asks. She sits next to me on the bed. "What is it?" I ask. "Me and the girls think your dying. Amy cried so much yesterday. She thought you'd die and leave us. Mom, are you seriously okay?" She asks. I was surprised. "Raina. Let the girls know this too. When that man got me pregnant, something happened. My doctor doesn't even know what. I can't eat anything without throwing it up. I won't stop fighting through. Let the girls know that. I'm not going to leave you. I'm trying my hardest." I say. She nods, and hugs me. I hug her back. "I'm sorry Mom." She says. "Don't be. It's my fault." I say. She leaves me in my room, and I open the packet of needles, taking a sharp deep breath in. I stick it through my skin and bite my lip at the pain. I open one of the packets, and put it through. I feel it going into my skin sharply, and begin to get dizzy. I fight the unconciousness my hardest, but take the needle out quickly, and feel the container. I feel my blind eye open sharply at the pain, and pick it up. I pick up the container as well, and throw them away. I hear my phone ring and ring, but I suddenly feel numbness coming up my legs. I wobble quickly to the phone, and answer. "Hello?" I ask, my voice shaking. "Hey, it's Morgan. Where are you?" He asks. I feel completely paralized in my legs. "I'm.. I'm.. I'm at home." I feel myself stuttering, and shaking. "Are you okay?" He asks. "U-Um.. I just took my medicine. Just the effects.." I say, my voice shaking still. "Are you sure thats it? What are the effects? Are there supposed to be any?" He asks. I feel a sharp pain in my stomach. I grimace in pain, and say, "I have no idea. I can't feel my legs up to my stomach and you hear me. I'm dizzy." I say, my voice shaking even more. "Liz, where is your oldest daughter... Raina! Where is she? She can help maybe." He says, his voice determined. "Morgan, It's okay. I... I.. I- I'm gonna call her. What d-d-did you need?" I ask him. "Just calling to ask what's up." He says, smirking at himself.
