5SOS Preferences

Nervous - Calum Hood

It kills me because she doesn't see how much I want her. To say I turn into a bumbling, stuttering, rambling idiot when she's around is an understatement. I may as well just be labelled useless right here and now.
I see her approaching, and already I feel my cheeks burning. My heart races, and when she flashes a grin at me I'm pretty sure it stops completely.
"Hey, Cal," she greets me, sitting down across from me. "Hey," I mumble, looking down. I'm scared that if I look at her for too long I won't be able to look away. She's perfect.
And she can't even see it.
Not only is she completely oblivious to the way I look at her, but she's completely oblivious to the way everyone looks at her - even some of the girls. She's stunning - and any flaws are completely invisible because of how sweet she is.
Normally, when a girl is beautiful in the way that she is, said girl is a complete bitch. But not [Y/N]. She's one of the nicest people you could ever meet. It's impossible not to like her.
"Are you okay, Cal? You've kinda gone into a trance.." She asks with a small laugh.
God, what an intoxicating noise.
I snap myself out of my thoughts and grin at her. "I'm good, sorry. How's your d-day been?" I reply, my teeth gritting at the sudden stutter. It only happens when I'm nervous - so basically whenever she's around.
"Okay I guess. It's improved now that I've seen you," [Y/N] says quietly, obviously shy from the way she avoids my eyes and allows her hair to fall around her face. She's blushing, but so am I. What does she mean by that? If only I had the guts to actually ask her.
"Good! My day has improved now that you're here too."
I worry that she's going to find my repeating of her statement insincere, but there's a wide smile gracing her lips.
I know I shouldn't be this nervous around her with her being one of my closest friends, but I can't help it. I've been in love with this girl for years now but she still can't see it. Plus, anyone could take her away from me at any time - that's enough to make anyone nervous.
"Um, do you wanna study tonight? I uh- really need some help with my assignments." She blurts, her cheeks turning pink.
My mind races - she wants to spend time with me? Outside of college? Maybe I'm dreaming.
"Yeah, that would be great. My parents are out of town if you wanna come over? We could maybe order a pizza as well if you wanted?" I say, managing to get my words out without a single stutter.
There's that beautiful smile again.
"That sounds great, Calum."

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