Never The Same ✔️[Completed]

Chapter 2

(A/n: Picture at the top is Jolene casted as Briana Owens)

The next morning, I couldn't sleep! Not even shutting my eyes closed! I stayed awake all night, and when my sister came back from where she went, Oliver was already in the livingroom like nothing happened. Turns out she did leave, but I didn't go downstairs. After he had me, I stayed awake, naked in bed, bloody and thinking. Also crying.

I never thought that a nigga was finna go through some crazy shit like that. But why? Why did it have to be me? What'd I do wrong?!

My door knocked, making me jump and yell, "No more! No more!" The door opened to Jolene who looked at me with worry. "Girl, what happened to you? And why your clothes all ova the place!...Are you bleeding! Damn girl! Put a pad on that!" She yelled making me cover my face and cry loudly, remembering why my clothes were everywhere and my bed was bloody. "Damn, girl. Sorry for yelling' no need to cry." She said, coming close to me and hugging me.

"No! Don't touch me! No!" I yelled feeling the goosebumps form on the spot that she touched. I instantly pushed her off of me, causing her to fall to the ground.

Damn, I put my all into that.

She quickly got up and yelled, "What's your fucking problem!" I started to look around hastily and breathing heavily.

"Yo, what happened. Calm down, I ain't mad! Shit." She said before coming to me and putting her hand on my shoulder, but I pushed it off. "Stop that shit and talk to me! What the fuck happened?!" She continued to yell making me start to cry hysterically.

Why won't she stop yelling! Stop yelling!

Her anger that was written on her face fell, turning into a worried look as I was letting it all out.

"Are you sick?" She asked making me cover my naked body and tremble. I feel so exposed, so dirty, so...so...fucking worthless and weak!

"Yo, I'm finna call mom. This don't look good." She said before making her way out the room, but I yelled, "No! No! Don't tell! Please!" She turned around quickly and said, "Why the fuck not?! You look like you're suffering!...Ight, fine. Get dressed, you going to the hospital. And put a fucking pad on and put that shit in the washing machine!" She commanded pointing to the cover. My sis is like a parent to me since she can get all bossy and still have good intensions. Well, she is older than me and stuff, so...

"I just w-want t-t-to be alone!" I hiccuped before yanking my covers over my face.

"Imma make you some of my famous chicken to cheer you up. That always work." She said before coming over to me to give me another hug, but I pushed her away. "Why do you keep pushing me away?! It's too early to be stressing!" She said running her hand through her hair.

Not when you just got raped, molested, and abused! I thought to myself. She can't know! No one can know or he'll do something!

The door closed making me stay in my position, crying lowly and hiccuping, the place between my legs is hurting.

Why me?! What'd I do! What'd I do to deserve this shit! What'd I do! Did I provoke him?! Did I lead him on somehow?! It's all my fault! My fault! I let him in! I let him on my bed! I let him lock the door! I let him get too comfortable! It's all my fault!

I went into my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I had scratches all ova my stomach and my chest, a small bruise on my cheek, and I had three hickeys on my neck. I lightly touched one of them making me wince in pain. I started to cry again, covering my face and shivering. I fell onto the cold ground, shaking and crying loudly. Everything hurts and it's all my fault!

I'm sorry mama, I betrayed you! You told me to stay back home with you and pops, but I had to move in with sis to go to my new school since it's closer! I should've just stayed with y'all, safe and sound! Happy and not hurt! Shit, what have I done!

I slower got up and opened the mirror cabinet. There was a safety pin there. I'm not the type to be suicidal, but I can't take the pain! Not for the rest of my life! Without telling anyone and letting it eat me up until I end up insane! I rather just end it now! Before all the pain takes over! I cut my arm and wrist with it, and let the blood bleed out.

I'm worthless! Nothing! Weak! It's all my fault this happened to me! Why did I have to get involved! Why did I open the door! Fuck, why did I even let the nigga in!

Suddenly everything got dark and I felt my body get weak and collapse.

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A/n: Damn, you guys, just hang in there for the next chapter. Stats are going down for this chapter and trust me, this book is just getting started.

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