You'll Never Know

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Months passed by. Parang kahapon lang nung sinagot ko si Jaycee and now, it's our 4th month anniversary. Patapos na din ang semester meaning... VACATION IS NEAR!

I'm with my best friend slash childhood friend, Adi, right now at Figaro. We're super close since we practically grew up with each other. He's usually a very lively and easy going guy. Pero may something sa kaniya lately. Napapansin ko medyo malungkotin na siya and not very talkative. 

"Who are you and what did you do to my best friend?" I playfully punched him on his arm kaya muntik na niyang maibuga sakin yung iniinom niyang coffee. "What the hell, Ray Adrian Ramos! You almost made me bathe with coffee!" Napasigaw ako sa gulat ko.

"Aba! Ikaw pang galit ako na ngang ginulat mo!" natawa na lang siya sa nangyari kaya napatawa na din ako.

"Yeah, right. Anyway, so ano nga?" tanong ko sa kaniya.

"Anong ano?" binalik niya'y tanong ko sakin. Putapete.

"Anong problema mo kako gago!" sagot ko, medyo annoying din tong si Adi. Bwisit.

"Aray ha! Wala naman akong problema eeeh." yun lang yung sagot niya. Sakit sa bangs nito oo.

Inirapan ko siya tsaka ko tinuloy yung pag inom ng usual na Caramel Macchiato ko. But this time it's not blended. Just a hot cup of caramel macchiato. He looked really troubled.

"Seriously, Adi. Please tell me." I started to sound like I'm begging him. Not something I do.

"Fine. But promise you won't get mad at me or anything. Please?" he finally accepted defeat. Tumango ako, so he just sighed.

"Here it goes..." sinimulan niya. "For years, I have liked you. I just don't have the guts to say it or whatever. Mas pinili ko yung pagkakaibigan natin over my feelings. But now na may boyfriend ka na... I don't really think na may pag-asa pa. That's why I tried so hard to change the way i felt about you." hindi ko talaga alam kung ano isasagot ko. Pero alam kong kelangan kong sumagot. Para sakin at kay Adi na din.

"Adi..." sabi ko. "If you would've just manned up and told me how you really felt back then... The maybe it'd be different. If you spoke I would have listened. I would have considered it. But now I'm with somebody else. And he loves me too much for me to mess it up. Adi... I love you. But only as a friend... as a brother... as my best friend... And what I said was true. I would have considered being with you because I liked you too but only back then. I love Jaycee... Maybe next time. I'm sorry." I held his hand and smiled at him assuringly.

Nakatingin lang siya sakin. Nakikita ko na nangingilig na yung luha sa mga mata niya. I can't believe he actually felt something for me but didn't have to guts to say it. Baka sinagot ko pa siya. Kaso wala eh. Wala na kong magagawa. Mahal ko si Jaycee. Mahal niya din ako. I can't possibly leave Jaycee for him. Maybe it's enough to be just friends.

He changed the topic na din. Maybe because he feels really awkward. Napansin ko din na bumalik na ang dating Adi. Nakangiti na siya. Pinunasan na niya yung mga luhang namuo sa mata niya at pareho kaming nagtatawan sa mga throwback at flashback na napag usapan namin.

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