Liz Whats Wrong With You?

Just Couldnt Hide It

Jake walked toward me. His left eye was a mess if purple and blue, his lip busted. I lowered my head and felt a tinge of guilt.

"Don't feel guilty. I deserved it." He stood before me, head lowered, face straight, brown eyes staring into my crystal ones. I looked up at him and stepped closer, running my thumb over the cut above his eye.

"Who did this?" I questioned, backing off of him.

"Don't worry about it Liz." He looked away, shoving his hands in his pockets.

"No. Tell me or that little cut won't matter after I'm finished." I demanded and he looked down. He sighed at me.

"Jordan. She kicked my-." I grabbed at his wrist and drug him across the front lawn to my house where Jordan was. I busted through the front door and stepped forward onto something. I slipped and before Jake could catch me I had dropped hard on the wood and my nose collided with the floor.

"Oh my lord." I grabbed my nose and rolled over on my back. Jake knelt beside me and I heard Jordan curse under her breath before smacking Jake in the back of the head.

"What was that for?" He yelled at her.

"Tripping Liz." She said bluntly and helped me to my feet. My nose was pouring blood and I began panicking.

"I didn't trip her. She slipped on that baby rattler." He replied.

"Sorry. Darcy had that. Oh no your nose is bleeding." Hunter rushed to me, Braylee on one hip, tea in the other.

"I'm fine honesty." I mumbled.

"Come here. Bring her to me. I know how to fix this." Alex got up from beside Andy and helped me to the sink. He picked me up by my waist and set me down on the counter.

"Why did you storm in like that?" He asked, prying my hands away from my nose. He grabbed a dark colored rag from Jake and wet it.

"I wanted to ask Jordan why she beat Jake up. I mean come on. He was freaking drunk." I replied as Alex gently pressed the rag to my nose and held it there.

"Im sorry. It scared me and I didn't want him to hurt you. Liz I saw how hard getting raped struck you. I watched as you cut yourself for the first time and all you did was bite your lip as blood poured from those cuts on both your wrists and thighs. Yes. We know about your wrists. I watched as you had countless anxiety and asthma attacks and cried, knowing you were dying little by little inside. Not to mention the times I comforted you after your parents passed. You destroyed yourself over and over and I can't let that happen again. I love you way to much to let anybody hurt you. Especially if they've hurt you good enough once." I watched tears drip down her cheeks and Andy grabbed her. She started crying hard and I just sat there. Alex stared at me until I looked at him. We were at eye level. Don't cry Liz. Now isn't the time. I cussed and looked down, causing blood to drip on my legs.

"I'm sorry Jordan. I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I destroyed myself. I'm sorry I butchered my body. I'm sorry I'm so screwed up in the head. I'm trying so hard to forget it. I still have nightmares. He comes back and does it again and I wake up. Alex doesn't even notice I take sleeping pills to kill the dreams. I wake up five and six times a night with nobody to hold me close because I'm scared if I get close he'll leave or will disappear. Turn to ash or something. I just can't take you being mad at me Jordan. I can't lose you. Or Andy. Or Hunter and especially not Alex. Not after praying for so long I wouldn't have to be so closed up. I won't do it again." My voice cracked and I fumbled with my fingers in my lap. Alex dabbed the rag on my nose and started cleaning the blood.

"You won't lose me. And I hate how you think I would leave over you waking me up in the middle of the night. I'm here for you anytime you want to talk. Don't think for a second I don't care about you. I love you. Even your flaws." Alex spoke calmly. Jordan wiped her eyes and walked to me, grabbing me and hugging me tightly.