Liz Whats Wrong With You?

You Can Do This

"Liz come on I don't want to be late for the visitation." Andy softly said from the doorway of my old bedroom. I stood in front of my purple body mirror fixing my knee length, long sleeved black dress and slipping on my heels. I turned around and walked over to him, laying my head on his shoulder.

"So this is it huh?" I replied sadly. The last time I'd ever see my loving parents. Then the funeral would come tomorrow. It's only been a week but it feels like it was just yesterday.

"This is it." Andy sighed. It was killing both of us equally. I turned to stand in front of him, wrapping my arms around his thin torso. I listened to his heartbeat. I didn't honestly want to let go. He was all I had left. All I had to live for. After a couple of minutes I let go and wiped the tears off his cheeks.

"I love you Andy. Remember that okay?" I weakly smiled and began to descend the stairs. Jake stood at the bottom talking to CC and Ashley. I grabbed my cigarettes and walked outside. Nanook rubbed against my leg as I lit my cigarette and looked up. I ran my hand across his head and bent down, placing a kiss to the tip of his nose.

"I know. I miss them too." I softly spoke.

"We all do." Jinxx broke my thoughts, causing me to jump.

"Dang it. Do you have to do that?" I pinched the bridge of my nose and sighed.

"Sorry. Just wanted tell you we're about to leave and if you need anything I'm here for you." He responded.

"It's fine. Umm thanks. I appreciate that." I hugged him. I turned to Nanook.

"Come on. I'm gonna ride with Nanook since none of you like my dog as much as me and Andy feeds him sour gummy worms which upset his stomach." I called to the boys who were now outside.

"Wait. I'll ride with you. You need some support." Jake piped up, running over to me.

"Thanks babe." I smiled and kissed him. He was so sweet sometimes.

I grabbed my keys and said my goodbyes. I opened the door to my mustang and told Nanook to get in. He obeyed and Jake hopped into the passenger seat.

"So tomorrow you guys have to be at the next venue huh?" I asked him, starting the car and backing out the driveway.

"Yea. The guys said they'd come for support. But listen. I know it's gonna be hard. Please don't cut anymore. Those scars won't go away. And just because I'm able to look at them and see a beautiful girl who was betrayed doesn't mean everyone else will or does." He grabbed my free hand and intertwined it in his.

"Thank you. You never give up. Just like Andy. Always seeing the better side. I love you for that. And a lot more. But mainly that." I laughed for the first time in days. He squeezed my hand.

"I'm always here. No matter what." He replied. I reached up and went to turn up the volume on the radio. Jake smacked my hand away playfully.

"What the heck are you doing?" I hissed. My radio. My rules.

"Just wait babe." He pulled out a CD and popped it in. The first song to come on was All Time Lows, Dear Maria Count Me In. I began singing to the top of my lungs.

"You're honestly an amazing singer." He smiled and leaned in for a kiss.

"Oh no pretty boy. Not while I'm driving. I ain't ready to meet my maker." I laughed placing a hand on his chest and softly pushing him away. We pulled into our destination and I cut off the engine. I slumped in my seat, feeling sick to my stomach.

"It'll be fine. I swear. You have me." He said placing a kiss to my cheek.

I opened the door to the car and let Nanook out after me. I climb the stairs to the funeral home and hesitated on opening the door before a hand was placed on my, over the handle. I expected to look up at Jake but I met Andy's crystal blues.

"We can do it right?" I whispered through the late evening breeze. He shook his head in response. One. Two. Three. We turned the handle and stepped inside.

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