Beautiful With You (Norman Reedus)

Chapter 12

Norman's Pov

I left the apartment with confused thoughts going through my brain. When Rae told me she was going to take a shower, I didn't think anything of it. But then I couldn't help myself, the next thing you know I was in the shower with her and we were having sex. I got so wrapped up in my feelings for her that I forgot about Katrina and focused on the girl that I really liked but didn't want to mess anything up with. I'm sure I just did with sleeping with her already. My fingers made their way through my hair as I stood outside her apartment building and trying to calm myself down. What the fuck, Reedus? I asked myself. What if she hates you now? What if she doesn't want to be friends anymore? You royally fucked everything up. She was the best thing you had going for you and you crossed a line. I bit at the corner of my thumb as I tried to get the thoughts to stop. I hated the fact that I probably hurt her. I hated seeing her upset. When I saw her at the diner when I brought Katrina to meet her, I knew that I made a mistake. I just don't understand why she was upset, it isn't like she felt the same for me. She didn't stop me in the shower though and I was even more confused. Could she like me? I shook my head and moved towards my bike. I needed to go see what Katrina wanted. She wouldn't tell me over the phone and she had demanded I come to see her. I kind of regret even giving into her because I didn't want to hurt anyone and I don't think I really care about her as much as I do Rae.

I sighed as I climbed onto my bike and turned it on, the roar of the engine calming me down but left one thing on my mind; how much I care about Rae. I stopped myself from leaving and turned the bike off. I put the kickstand back down and ran towards the apartment building up the steps of Rae's apartment, knocking on the door and tapping my foot as I waited. I felt awkward and I didn't know what to do with my hands as I waited. I didn't want to put them into my pockets because I wanted to pull her close to me. The door open and there stood Rae with her hair up in a messy bun and headband in, I didn't get to take much in as I pulled her close to me and crashed my lips down to hers. I needed to feel her lips on mine and I needed to taste her. I couldn't get enough and it was like a dam was broken when we joined as one in the shower. I just wanted to keep her close to me and forget everything that exists in the world. She makes me feel special and it was nice to know that she was just like me.

She backed up into the apartment without breaking the kiss, the door slamming shut behind us as my fingers pulled out the headband and hair tie, preferring her hair to be down. I wrapped the locks of hair around my fingers and gave it a gentle yank, which caused an animalistic growl to tear from her throat. Her fingers curled into the front of my shirt as she held me so close to her, our tongues fighting for dominance as we continued to kiss. My other hand went down to her ass and gave it a tight squeeze before I pulled back and rested my forehead on hers, my body begging for oxygen. My eyes opened to look into her now warm brown ones and I could tell that she was getting turned on and it made me groan as I crushed her lips with mine again, but I pulled back and just hugged her to me, resting my chin on top of her head. Both of our chests were heaving up and down with the need for air. My pulse had skyrocketed but now it was coming down and I didn't want to let her go. She clung to me and it made me feel needed and wanted and that is what I was looking for. Before she came into my life I was alone and had no one. None of the woman made me feel like they were with me for me and they were only there for the Norman Reedus celebrity and not the person. Now here I was with someone else and had someone made me feel like a normal person right here in my arms. She was there before Katrina was. I just don't want to ruin anything with her and that is what scares me. That is why I didn't want to start anything with her and now that we've crossed that line, my body craved hers and I craved her company. What was I going to do?

I looked down at Rae and brought my thumb to run across her bottom lip and a small smile curled the corner of her lips and I could just see myself with her. I could picture us as a couple but would I ever have the balls to ask her? Will I chicken out because I don't want to lose her friendship? It seems like she has me wrapped around her finger but yet, I just didn't know what to do.