For You // R.G.

Salt On The Wound

When I arrived at Sena's house, she was sitting alone at her kitchen table with a mug of probably tea. She rose up when she saw my atrocious self walk in. Her eyes landed on my unkept and frizzy hair that was spun into a bun on top of my head. Then she saw my worn makeup from yesterday that I forgot to take off.

"What the hell?" She was puzzled with my appearance and the dimeaner I brought with it. I must have looked like I had gotten into a fight. She stood there, waiting for me to speak.

"I messed up." I drew out in a tired way, she crinkles her eyes, not understanding what I meant.

"Tell me." She set me down at the table and sat in her place, all of her attention on me. I was staring at the kitchen table, noticing small flaws in the table top, distracting myself the best I could from answering the question.

"Max."

I gulped, I looked up at her like a dog getting yelled at by their owner. I finally tell her, "I slept with Luke last night."

Sena's mouth dropped open, she didn't move. It was bad.

"I didn't even have a concious last night-- I wouldn't have known about the whole thing if I didn't wake up in his bed."

She took a moment to answer, still recovering from the news, "Max... Does Rick know?-"

"No, and you cannot... cannot tell him," I rushed over to her now that she was standing up, I put my hands on her shoulders, "Please don't say anything to him because today I wanted to make things right with him again."

"Why did you sleep with Luke then?" She implored

"I- I don't even remember anything from last night. The furthest I remember was kissing Rick-"

I didn't even mean to say the last part, I was reflecting upon what happened last night that I rememebered but Sena caught onto the last detail,

"You kissed him?"

"He kissed me actually and it ended there," I started to say but then she went on,

"Max, how do you not remember that you had sex with Luke last night? Were you on drugs?" She asked, she questioned the last part since she knew I didn't do drugs.

"No! I went to Rick's for a couple of drinks and we both got really drunk then I left. I don't know, maybe I stayed later or had more to drink at someone else's house."

We both stayed silent until she said something, "We have a welcoming party tonight, it's being hosted by Deanna."

I looked up at her, I shook my head at her,

"Just thought you should know."

"What am I going to do? I don't know if Luke will remember, I rushed out before he was awake."

"He might, you'll just have to see." Sena says

I rubbed my face, then I stopped when I felt my greasy makeup on my face. I made a face, I needed to take a shower-- I needed to get a house.

"You can take a shower here if you want, Derek is out with Abraham working on the walls." Sena says when she noticed my face.

"Thanks," I say, now getting up to search for towels, "I need a house."

"I'll go with you today to see Deanna about housing arrangements, if you want." Sena says.

"Yeah, that'd be great." I say before getting into the shower.

..

Sena and I walked over to Deanna's afterwords.

"What are you going to wear tonight?" Sena asked