wild and running || a.b. (series on hold)

Chapter 36

I stand in the rain in front of my Marie's  house, crying and dying inside. I knock and a few minutes later the door opens and she stands looking down at me. I'm in my weakest and most vulnerable state. How pathetic must I be to run to her at a time like this? I hate when people see me when I'm weakest

"What happened? Are you--- wait, hold on ill get you a towel, you must be freezing." She says all too quickly and runs inside. I stay in the rain and let the water run down my body. I deserve to be freezing and to sit alone and in the pouring rain. I shouldn't have come here. I decide to leave and turn to begin walking to my car, maybe I should just be alone. "Hey!" She shouts and grabs my wrist before I made it too far. I turned and looked at her, scared of what she may say. "Come inside." She says softly and begins tugging on my wrist until I decide to move my feet and follow her inside her home.

I didn't even have the guts to talk. What all just happened? 

What just happened?

She leads me to the bathroom, my wet clothes dripping on to her floor. I don't know how long I was standing outside until I decided to knock. She brings me some fresh clothes and I change. 

I walk back to the living room where she has milk, ice cream, and some Oreos laid out for us. "Come sit." She says while patting the seat next to her. I sit and grab the whole thing of Oreos. I'm about to fucking binge eat until I explode. 

"What happened?"

I explain the whole story to her, including the details about how off he seemed.

"Weird. What an asshole. Did you guys like... Fuck?" 

"No."

"Good." She says.

As I sit back and munch on Oreos, I realize that Clay and Andy have left me without explanations. What's the sea with that? It just constantly makes me keep thinking of what I could have possibly done wrong and what I could have done better.

It makes me break inside to know that I've lost both of them. 

It also makes me realize that I don't want Clay back into my life. I don't. What am I gonna do about that? I shove about six Oreos in my milk and eat them all in a matter of seconds while Marie sits quietly beside  me.

After eating a dangerously unhealthy amount of Oreos, Marie turns off the TV. "That's it. We are going to a party tonight. Let's go get you a dress from my closet. "Marie... I don't want to." I cry. My heart is still numb, but it's beginning to burn.

It's starting to sink in.

"You have no choice or I'm calling Clay and James."

"Fine." I huff while standing up. She hands me a black tank top looking piece of fabric. "Is this a tank top?" I ask her. She smiles, "Yes, but it's long enough."

Okay whatever. I don't even care what I wear.

I grab my makeup from Andy's bag and apply some. 

I'm usually not a big drinker but I feel like drinking tonight. I feel like forgetting everything. Washing out my brain. I slip on some of Marie's lace up black heeled boots. "Go with red lipstick." She tells me. I shrug and apply some because why not?

We arrive at my universities frat house with booming music. I can't wait to get wasted.

Marie and I walk in and she follows me to get a drink. I grab a pink lemonade drink in a bottle and she declines one I try giving her. "I have to drive, but feel free to have as many as you want." I sigh and nod in agreement. I'm glad I came to her.