Edward Elric X blind reader

Chapter 17 (the passion is real❤️❤️)

It was dark when the car finally stopped. I stepped outside and stretched. I don't know why but I was thinking about the night Ed... Admitted feelings towards me.

Yes, he thought I was asleep. But still.

I was deep in thought when I felt a hand on my forehead.

"Are you doing okay, (Y/N)? You look like your burning up." Ed said, concerned.

I bat away his hand and insisted I was fine. To be honest I was feeling vulnerable and week. I guess Ed kinda broke through my emotional shell. I always have kept my outer appearance as a happy, bright, bubbly girl. That's how I dealt with everything, I never really let anyone in.

Most everyone around me had seen only two sides to me. My before mentioned happy side, and my emotionless side. Right now I'm just a mixture of both.

I keep a straight face, and I am easily irritable. But on the inside my head is swarming with trying to comprehend my feelings, while also trying to push them away.

I think the brothers are the only people to have seen me cry in years. And I almost never cry.

We started walking to where Ed thought Al was. We were walking on uneven terrain and I kept stumbling and falling.

We were almost at a place we could stop and rest when I tripped and fell into Darius.
"Damn it, look at where your going! I am sick of you falling all the t-" he stopped as he realized his mistake.

I was shocked, to say the least. I can tell the idiot chimera braced himself for me to come after him and kick him like I had done before, but I just stood there.

On top of everything I had been going through, he just had to say that. I don't want to be a burden for something I can't fix. I feel so useless and unwanted. 

I could hear Ed yelling at the gorilla, but I didn't process any of their words. I just half sat, half crumpled to the ground.

I wanted to cry and kick and scream and just hug Ed all at the same time.

I didn't wail, or whimper. My throat didn't burn or anything. But I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. It was like before back in the alley, no sound. Just tears.

My transmutation circles wouldn't help in this situation either, I can't 'see' if a tree root was in front of me or not. I can make out general shapes and objects, like walls or people. But if there's something on the floor in my room there's nothing I can really do to see that.

I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, Ed was crouched down so we were face to face. I just tilted my head away from him so he couldn't see my tears and tried to keep my breathing steady.

"Do you want me to carry you?" He asked softly. I was a bit taken back. His voice was laced with what I can only assume was love.

Not sympathy.

Or pity.

Just wanting to make it easier on me. I was tempted to say no and walk on my own, but I knew what would result if I did that. I just nodded and got on Ed's shoulders, but not before I hugged him. We both blushed and I smiled a little at him.

I think Ed is the only person who had ever made me truly happy, in a very long time.

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Ed's POV

I think I was more shocked at what Darius said than (Y/N) was. I knew both chimera didn't like her much, but at least Heinkel was respectful towards her.

I ended up carrying her on my shoulders, glaring at the guilty looking chimera every once in awhile.

I never want to see her cry. Not ever.

I felt her shift on my shoulders a little, motioning towards the ground. I took the hint and put her down.

We set up camp for the night and (Y/N) motioned for me. We were sharing a tent because 1. We only had two and I was not letting her sleep in the same tent as the chimera, and 2. Because we got so used to sharing a bed we didn't really want to sleep on our own.

"What's up?" I ask her once I was inside the tent.

"Do you think I'm a burden?" She asks me quietly. I freeze up. What would ever give her that idea.

"No, of course not." I reply coming and sitting down next to her.

"I need to tell you something. Do you promise not to leave or freak out or anything." She says in an even quieter voice.

"You can tell me anything." I say softly.

She starts

"Do you remember the night I had that bad dream?" I nodded and brushed her arm to continue. "Well, I kind of lied about what it was about. The truth is, it was really..." She took a deep breath, "it was you and Alohonse. I didn't wa-want to hurt you, but both of you were-" she stopped.

I just looked at her, stunned.

"I kicked you, and and-you didn't get up." She said, fighting back tears.

I just scooped her up and brought her closer to me. She sobbed into the crook of my neck.

"I don't deserve you." She said.

"What do you mean?" I ask her gently.

"You are so wonderful and amazing and great. Your the only real friend I've ever had. I'm such an awful person and I've done bad things and I-I."

I cut her off by pressing my lips to hers.

"I would never, ever hurt you. I love you too much to hurt you." I said after I pulled back.

I'm pretty sure I broke her. She didn't move an inch. Just froze.

"I love you too." She said after she remembered to breath.

She leaned into me, capturing my lips into another sweet, soft kiss. Her lips tasted like sugar.

She pulled away this time.

"Good night, Ed." She said as she slipped into her sleeping bag.

"Good night." I said, a smile on my face as I remembered how terrified I was of her when we first met.

'Who would've known, I fell in love with the ears of fort Briggs. If only Al could see me now.' I thought to myself as I heard (Y/N)'s breath slow and even as she fell into a peaceful sleep.