After the bell

Fifty six

I'm sitting outside the clinic in Jon's car with him, we hadn't spoke yet we just sat in silence, it felt like we was both dragging out saying anything because we both knew that sooner or later we would be going in different directions.

"So" I said breaking the silence Jon turns looking at me "I found out who was behind us being found out"

"How you find that out?" Jon asked leaning in closer to me.

"Let's just say I've had a extremely interesting conversation with Miss Butler yesterday lunchtime"

"It was her? Really?" Jon asked in disbelief I nodded my head "what she say?"

"Well she said that I seduced you, that it's all my fault that you lost your job, called me a 'it girl', told me that you got extremely turned on when she groped you"

"Babe" Jon started but I shake my head at him.

"It's alright I don't care" I said cupping his face "that woman she was just out to take away everything that we had, and she's succeeded, you are sitting here now with nothing all because you wouldn't jump into bed with her by the sounds of it, she's not going to get away with it, I'm not going to let her" I informed him.

"What you got in mind babe?" Jon asked me pushing hair away from my eyes.

"I'm going to bring her down, just like she did to you" I informed him with a sigh.

"How you going to do that?"

"I'm not sure yet, but I have a feeling we wasn't the only ones who was hiding a secret" i told him.

"What do you think she's hiding?" Jon asked, I just shrug my shoulders before pulling my phone out my bag.

"I'm not sure babe, but she's not getting away with hurting us" I said to him going through my phone "I'm going to have to call a taxi" I said feeling myself tearing up.

"Taxi?" Jon questioned me.

"Yeah I didn't drive here, I came for an abortion, I didn't know what state I was going to be in" I explained to him reminding him where we was.

Jon starts the car looking at me I shake my head at him "Jon, please don't if you get caught, you going to be behind bars"

"If I get to spend another five minutes with you it's worth the risk" Jon said has he reversed out the parking space.

Jon was driving and we sit in silence I knew at some point we would end up having to say goodbye and this time we both didn't know when we would see each other again.

Jon drives past a motel but quickly breaks turning to look at me, I knew what he was thinking and I nod my head at him he reverses pulling into the car park.

"You sure about this babe?" I asked him.'

"Yeah" he nods getting out the car I get out following him lacing my fingers with his as we walk to reception.

We enter the room that we got for the night, I walk in looking around sitting on the bed watching Jon take his jacket off.
I lay down on the bed as Jon walks over laying next to me I cuddle into him.

"So where are you staying?" I asked him.'

"I stayed at my parents till I got a new place" he informed me.

"Bet your parents was pleased you lost your job because you slept with your student" i asked

"They weren't happy, but I told them how I truly felt about you, there not pleased but they'll be okay"

"Did you tell them about the baby?" I asked him leaning up on my arm.

"Yeah, yeah I did"

"I told my dad, he took it a lot better than I imagined he would" I said laying back down.

We laid in silence for a few minutes "do you think it will always be like this?"

"I don't know baby, I don't want it to, I want to be there for you and the baby" he said resting his hand on my tummy.

Jon moves rolling me on my back looking at me "even though I'm not with you don't mean I don't love you, don't ever thing that" he told me.

I nod my head at him "I know"

I cup his face pulling his face closer to mine kissing him.

We was soon naked under the sheets Jon was between my legs slowly and carefully thrusting into me, him making love to me felt different, it wasn't like it used to be it was full of passion and tenderness, to me it was like he was saying his final goodbye.

I wake up the next morning in Jon's arms, I knew that in the next hour I'd be saying my final goodbye to him, well till I could find away of getting him back and that's if I could.

I get out of bed getting dressed seeing Jon watching me, I don't say anything I just look at him before darting of to the toilet being sick.

Jon appears next to me holding my hair back, I flush the toilet before sitting next to him on the bathroom floor he holds on to my hand as we sat there, neither one of us said anything to each other.

I had rung for a taxi which had pulled up outside I look at Jon who nods his head at me, I pick up my bag walking outside with Jon, I put my bag in back of the taxi turning to look at him.

"You take care of your self" Jon said to me I nod my head tears fell down my face.

"Yeah I will" I nodded "you do the same" I told him patting his chest gently.

"Peyton, we'll be alright, it will all be alright" Jon said

"How can you say that? It being alright would be us going home together as a family, not us going our separate ways, none of this is okay" I replied.

"I know babe, I wish I could change it but I can't"

"Last night" I said trying to hold in tears but I couldn't I started sobbing "that was goodbye" I cried "because you know, you know that we can't be together."

Jon looks down at the ground he doesn't say anything I nodded my head at him swallowing hard knowing I was right, i get into the taxi closing the door and the taxi drives off, I wanted to turn around but I couldn't because turning around would be a reminder of what I just lost.