After the bell

Fifty two

Two days later i hadn't been to school I couldn't face it not with all the gossip and the finger pointing, and for me school wouldn't be school without Jon, I know Jon would want me in school but i couldn't find it in me.

I moved back in with my dad, as soon as my mom found out from the police that Jon had gone for good she allowed me to start living my life again, like it was that easy when your heartbroken.

Late last night I received a text from Jon saying that he left a bag on his bed with all my stuff that I left at his apartment and it was ready for me to collect from his places, so I asked Lana and Emily to come with me to collect it.

It was the next day after school and Emily and Lana arrive at mine after school so they can come and collect my stuff with me. Lana had informed me that she spoke to Emily about everything so she knew the truth and not gossip that was going around the school.

I drive Lana and Emily to Jon's old place letting us all inside getting a shock walking through the door, it had a totally different feel to it. Most his stuff was gone, it look un lived in.

I walk into the bedroom seeing my bag on a bed that had no sheets on, the chest of drawers was open and empty along with his wardrobe.

I look at my bag seeing it was open, on top of my stuff was a bottle of his cologne with one of his t shirts that I loved wearing.

I do it up trying to hold tears back, but the more I tried the more anger built up inside me.

I walk past both Emily and Lana walking down the hallway into the living room dropping my bag, being here collecting my stuff seeing it empty made reality set in, Jon was gone he had left me and his baby.

I walk over picking up a cushion from the couch throwing it angrily across the room shouting out.

I turn around picking up the others and I started throwing them angrily across the room before turning the coffee table over.

"Peyton stop!" Emily shouted.

"Why huh?" I questioned her "it's not like Jon will know. His gone!"

"You can't do this" Lana said to me.

"Why not huh?" Jon's not coming back! He don't need any of this" I said throwing stuff around the room "he don't need this lamp! Or tv" I said throwing the lamp into Jon's flatscreen tv

"Hey Peyton" Lana said grabbing me in a tight grip "listen to me hunni, you need to calm down, if not for me but for the baby"

I screamed out falling to my knees "I can't I can't" I cried leaning forward on the floors wrapping my arms around my waist hugging myself  "it hurts so much him leaving it hurts. I can't do this on my own"

"I know I know hunni" Lana said hugging me tight Emily joins me on the floor rubbing my back trying to give me some comfort.

After I calmed down I took Emily and Lana home before driving home, I sat in the car looking at my phone, I picked it up looking at the number Jon texted me from I push the call button hearing it ring but he didn't answer.

I swallow hard before getting out the car grabbing my bag heading inside.

I go upstairs to my room sitting on my bed looking at the bag, sitting there my body ached to be hugged but not just from anybody, from Jon.

I opened the bag pulling out the t shirt he put in my bag I lifted to my face breathing it in, it smelt amazing.

"You alright princess?" My dad asked appearing at the door I shook my head starting to cry again he walks over sitting on the bed hugging me.

"I I can't do this not on my own" I cried into him.

"I'm here Peyton, I'm going nowhere" my dad reassured me "it will get easier, I promise"

"Not for me it's going to get harder, especially in nine months time" I sobbed breaking the news of my pregnancy to my dad.

"Oh god Peyton, your not?" My dad said softly rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry" I cried.

"Your so stupid, but it will be okay, we'll get through this together" he rubbed my back comforting me.

"That's what Jon said but his gone" I informed him sitting up straight.

"He had know choice, I don't understand why he had to leave, it makes no sense, did you ask ya stepdad?" My dad asked.

"Harry? No he might be a lawyer but he wouldn't tell anything." I sighed laying back on the bed wiping my face from tears.

My dad sits round on the bed looking at me "so you keeping the baby?" He asked me.

"That was the plan, Jon and I spoke it through, but his gone, I don't know what to do now, he told me he wanted me to keep it but I can't go do it in my own" I replied.

"Well princess there's only two choices and you have to make one of them."

"I get that dad, but how?" I asked him wiping tears from my face again.

"I don't know how, I've never had to make it, yeah me and your mom was young when we had you, but we was together getting rid of you was never a option in my eyes." My dad huffs out running his hand over his hair "look Peyton, I'm not saying getting rid of it is the right decision, or even keeping it is, it will be tough on you no matter what you decide, but I'm here no matter what"

I nod my head outstretching my hand to him he takes it giving it a squeeze,

"Oh come on princess we can do better than that" he said throwing himself forward "give ya old man a hug"

I give him a quick hug pushing him off me sitting up.

"You hungry?" He asked me "you must be, I will go do you something to eat" he gets up kissing my head leaving the room.

I look at Jon's top that was on my pillow sighing out, deep down I knew what had to be done, I grab my laptop turning it on searching for local abortion clinics, I was going to get an abortion.