After the bell

Forty nine

I sit staring into space holding the test firmly in my hand as Lana sits quietly in the chair, the room was deadly quite, it had been an hour since I rung Jon, I had received a text saying he was on his way ten minutes ago. 

I jump hearing the key in the door I look at Lana wide eyed before looking down at the floor as I held the test firmly in my hand.

The door closes I felt Jon stand nervously behind me looking at me and Lana.

"Came as soon as I could, what's happened?" Jon asked walking around the couch sitting on the edge next to me watching me as wipe the tears that run down my face.

I close my eyes for a second trying to prepare myself to speak but I couldn't, I open my eyes looking at Jon as lift the test up to him "I'm sorry" I cried handing it to him.

He takes the test from me looking at it as I cried hysterically next to him, he doesn't say anything he just pulls me into him kissing my head as he stares at the test in his hands.

Lana ends up leaving after an hour leaving me and Jon who hadn't spoke to each other yet.

"So what excuse did you come up with?" I asked him wondering how he could of left school.

"Told them a family issue come up" He starts running his fingers up and down my arm which he knew relaxed me "and I wasn't wrong" he said.

"My dad his gunna kill me" I said wiping tears from my face "oh god my mom she's gonna freak out" I said as thought about my family's reactions.

"Ya dad won't kill ya, it was me that got ya pregnant" He muttered.

"No it was both of us, takes two remember" I reminded him I sighed out feeling sick with shock.

We laid there in silence on the couch still neither one of us had moved I look up at him seeing him staring up at the ceiling "what we going to do?" I questioned him.

"I don't know babe" he replied with a sigh.

"Well we either keep it or we don't" I stated

"Well it's up to you, I've said before babe is support you in what ever you want"

"Do you want to be a dad?" I asked him leaning up on my arm looking at him.

Jon looks at me "well yeah, it's something I wanted"

I lay my head back down thinking about if having this baby was a good idea. I'd just turned eighteen all I wanted was to graduate go to college, could I swap all that for formula sleepless night and diapers?

But could I really abort a baby? The thought of going through that scared me, taking a life, when I could bring something pretty incredible into the world.

"Do you want to have a baby?" I asked him looking up at him.

"Yeah babe, if your hundred percent certain about going through with it, then yeah, it will be hard, but I'm going to support you" he replied.

"Yeah?" I questioned him.

"Yeah, I love you, I'm going nowhere, I promise you that" he said.

I nod my head cuddling into Jon wondering how much everything was going to change

Was it going to get better or worse?